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Intra Muros
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Rebecca Ruter Springer
(1898)

Artist Unknown
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Author's
Preface
1.
The Journey Begins
2. My Celestial Home
3. The Paradise Life
4. Parents
5. Return to Earth
6. Carroll
7. Meeting Loved Ones
8. Meeting the Master
9. A Child's Homecoming
10. A Divine Speech
11. Rebecca Meets Her Sister
12. A Visit With a Special Friend
13. A Visit to the Heavenly City
14. The Temple
15. Meeting Special Friends
16. A Reunion of Mother and Son
17. The Best Reunion of All
18. The Celestial
Sea
19. The Vision Ends |
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Author's Preface |
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The pages of this little volume contain no fancy sketch,
written to while away an idle hour; but are the true, though greatly
condensed, record of an experience during days when life hung in the
balance between Time and Eternity, with the scales dipping decidedly
toward the Eternity side.
I am painfully aware of the fact that I
can never paint for others the scenes as they appeared to me during
those wonderful days. If I can only dimly show the close linking of the
two lives—the mortal with the divine—as they then appeared to me, I may
be able to partly tear the veil from the death we so dread, and show it
to be only an open door into a new and beautiful phase of the life we
now live.
If any of the scenes depicted should seem
irreverent in view of our religious training here, I can only say, "I
give it as it came to me." In those strange, happy hours the close
blending of the two lives, so wrapped about with the Father's watchful
care and tender love; the reunion of friends, with the dear earth-ties
unchanged; the satisfied desires, the glad surprises and the divine
joys, all intensified and illumined by the reverence and love and
adoration that all hearts gave to the blessed Trinity, appeared to me
the most perfect revelation of that "blessed life" of which here we so
fondly dream. With the hope that it may comfort and uplift some who
read, even as it then did, and as its memory ever will do, for me, I
submit this imperfect sketch of a most perfect vision.
—R. R. S. |
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1.
The Journey Begins |
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I WAS many hundred miles away from home and
friends, and had been very ill for many weeks. I was entirely among
strangers, and my only attendant, though of a kindly disposition, knew
nothing whatever of the duties of the sick room; hence I had none of the
many delicate attentions that keep up an invalid's failing strength. I
had taken no nourishment of any kind for nearly three weeks, scarcely
even water, and was greatly reduced in both flesh and strength, and
consciousness seemed at times to wholly desert me.
I had an unutterable longing for the presence of my dear
distant ones; for the gentle touch of beloved hands, and whispered words
of love and courage; but they never came—they could not. Responsible
duties, that I felt must not be neglected, kept these dear ones much of
the time in distant scenes, and I would not recall them.
I lay in a large, comfortable room, on the second floor
of a house in Kentville. The bed stood in a recess at one end of the
apartment, and from this recess a large stained-glass window opened upon
a veranda fronting on the street. During much of my illness I lay with
my face to this window, and my back to the room; and I remember thinking
how easy it would be to pass through the window to the veranda, if one
so desired.
When the longing for the loved distant faces and voices
became more than I could bear, I prayed that the dear Christ would help
me to realize his blessed presence; and that since the beloved ones of
earth could not minister to me, I might feel the influence of the other
dear ones who are "all ministering spirits." Especially did I ask to be
sustained should I indeed be called to pass through the dark waters
alone. It was no idle prayer, and the response came swiftly, speedily.
All anxieties and cares slipped away from me, as a worn-out garment, and
peace, Christ's peace, enfolded me. I was willing to wait God's time for
the coming of those so dear to me, and said to myself, more than once,
"If not here, it will be there; there is no fear of disappointment
there."
In those wonderful days of agonized suffering, and great
peace, I felt that I had truly found, as never before, the refuge of
"the Everlasting Arms." They lifted me; they upbore me; they enfolded
me; and I rested in them, as a tired child upon its mother's bosom. One
morning, dark and cold and stormy, after a day and night of intense
suffering, I seemed to be standing on the floor by the bed, in front of
the stained-glass window.
Someone was standing by me, and, when I looked up, I saw
it was my husband's favorite brother, who "crossed the flood" many years
ago.
"My dear brother Frank!" I cried out joyously, "how good
of you to come!"
"It was a great joy to me that I could do so, little
sister," he said gently. "Shall we go now?" and he drew me toward the
window.
I turned my head and looked back into the room that
somehow I felt I was about to leave forever. It was in its usual good
order: a cheery, pretty room. The attendant sat by the stove at the
farther end, comfortably reading a newspaper; and on the bed, turned
toward the window, lay a white, still form, with the shadow of a smile
on the poor, worn face. My brother drew me gently, and I yielded,
passing with him through the window, out on the veranda, and from
thence, in some unaccountable way, down to the street. There I paused
and said earnestly:
"I cannot leave Will and our dear boy."
"They are not here, dear, but hundreds of miles away,"
he answered.
"Yes, I know, but they will be here. Oh, Frank! they
will need me—let me stay!" I pleaded.
"Would it not be better if I brought you back a little
later—after they come?" he said, with a kind smile.
"Would you surely do so?" I asked.
"Most certainly, if you desire it. You are worn out with
the long suffering, and a little rest will give you new strength."
I felt that he was right, said so in a few words, and we
started slowly up the street. He had drawn my hand within his arm, and
endeavored to interest me, as we walked. But my heart clung to the dear
ones whom I felt I was not to see again on earth, and several times I
stopped and looked wistfully back the way we had come. He was very
patient and gentle with me, waiting always till I was ready to proceed
again; but at last my hesitation became so great that he said
pleasantly:
"You are so weak I think I had better carry you;" and
without waiting for a reply, he stooped and lifted me in his arms, as
though I had been a little child; and, like a child, I yielded, resting
my head upon his shoulder, and laying my arm about his neck. I felt so
safe, so content, to be thus in his care. It seemed so sweet, after the
long, lonely struggle, to have some one assume the responsibility of
caring thus tenderly for me.
He walked on with firm, swift steps, and I think I must
have slept; for the next I knew, I was sitting in a sheltered nook, made
by flowering shrubs, upon the softest and most beautiful turf of grass,
thickly studded with fragrant flowers, many of them the flowers I had
known and loved on earth. I remember noticing heliotrope, violets,
lilies of the valley, and mignonette, with many others of like nature
wholly unfamiliar to me. But even in that first moment I observed how
perfect in its way was every plant and flower. For instance, the
heliotrope, which with us often runs into long, ragged sprays, there
grew upon short, smooth stems, and each leaf was perfect and smooth and
glossy, instead of being rough and coarse-looking; and the flowers
peeped up from the deep grass, so like velvet, with sweet, happy faces,
as though inviting the admiration one could not withhold.
And what a scene was that on which I looked as I rested
upon this soft, fragrant cushion, secluded and yet not hidden! Away,
away—far beyond the limit of my vision, I well knew—stretched this
wonderful sward of perfect grass and flowers; and out of it grew equally
wonderful trees, whose drooping branches were laden with exquisite
blossoms and fruits of many kinds. I found myself thinking of St. John's
vision in the Isle of Patmos, and "the tree of life" that grew in the
midst of the garden, bearing "twelve manner of fruits, and whose leaves
were for the healing of the nations."
Beneath the trees, in many happy groups, were little
children, laughing and playing, running hither and thither in their joy,
and catching in their tiny hands the bright-winged birds that flitted in
and out among them, as though sharing in their sports, as they doubtless
were. All through the grounds, older people were walking, sometimes in
groups, sometimes by twos, sometimes alone, but all with an air of
peacefulness and happiness that made itself felt by even me, a stranger.
All were in spotless white, though many wore about them or carried in
their bands clusters of beautiful flowers. As I looked upon their happy
faces and their spotless robes, again I thought, "These are they who
have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb."
Look where I would, I saw, half hidden by the trees,
elegant and beautiful houses of strangely attractive architecture, that
I felt must be the homes of the happy inhabitants of this enchanted
place. I caught glimpses of sparkling fountains in many directions, and
close to my retreat flowed a placid river, with water clear as crystal.
The walks that ran in many directions through the grounds appeared to me
to be, and I afterward found were, of pearl, spotless and pure, bordered
on either side by narrow streams of pellucid water, running over stones
of gold. The one thought that fastened itself upon me as I looked,
breathless and speechless, upon this scene, was "Purity, purity!" No
shadow of dust; no taint of decay on fruit or flower; everything
perfect, everything pure. The grass and flowers looked as though
fresh-washed by summer showers, and not a single blade was any color but
the brightest green. The air was soft and balmy, though invigorating;
and instead of sunlight there was a golden and rosy glory everywhere;
something like the afterglow of a Southern sunset in midsummer.
As I drew in my breath with a short, quick gasp of
delight, I heard my brother, who was standing beside me, say softly,
"Well?" and, looking up, I discovered that he was watching me with keen
enjoyment. I had, in my great surprise and delight, wholly forgotten his
presence. Recalled to myself by his question, I faltered:
"Oh, Frank, that I—" when such an overpowering sense of
God's goodness and my own unworthiness swept over me that I dropped my
face into my hands, and burst into uncontrollable and very human
weeping.
"Ah!" said my brother, in a tone of self-reproach, "I am
inconsiderate." And lifting me gently to my feet, he said, "Come, I want
to show you the river."
When we reached the brink of the river, but a few steps
distant, I found that the lovely field ran even to the water's edge, and
in some places I saw the flowers blooming placidly down in the depths,
among the many-colored pebbles with which the entire bed of the river
was lined.
"I want you to see these beautiful stones," said my
brother, stepping into the water and urging me to do the same.
I drew back timidly, saying, "I fear it is cold."
"Not in the least," he said, with a reassuring smile.
"Come."
"Just as I am?" I said, glancing down at my lovely robe,
which, to my great joy, I found was similar to those of the dwellers in
that happy place.
"Just as you are," with another reassuring smile.
Thus encouraged, I, too, stepped into the "gently
flowing river," and to my great surprise found the water, in both
temperature and density, almost identical with the air.
Deeper and deeper grew the stream as we passed on, until I felt the
soft, sweet ripples playing about my throat. As I stopped, my brother
said, "A little farther still."
"It will go over my head," I expostulated. "Well, and
what then?" I cannot breathe under the water—I will suffocate."
An amused twinkle came into his eyes, though he said
soberly enough, "We do not do those things here."
I realized the absurdity of my position, and with a
happy laugh said, "All right; come on," and plunged headlong into the
bright water, which soon bubbled and rippled several feet above my head.
To my surprise and delight, I found I could not only breathe, but laugh
and talk, see and hear, as naturally under the water as above it. I sat
down in the midst of the many-colored pebbles, and filled my hands with
them, as a child would have done. My brother lay down upon them, as he
would have done on the green sward, and laughed and talked joyously with
me.
"Do this," he said, rubbing his hands over his face, and
running his fingers through his dark hair.
I did as he told me, and the sensation was delightful. I
threw back my loose sleeves and rubbed my arms, then my throat, and
again thrust my fingers through my long, loose, hair, thinking at the
time what a tangle it would be in when I left the water. Then the
thought came, as we at last arose to return, "What are we to do for
towels?" for the earth-thoughts still clung to me; and I wondered, too,
if the lovely robe was not entirely spoiled. But behold, as we neared
the shore and my head once more emerged from the water, the moment the
air struck my face and hair I realized that I would need no towel or
brush. My flesh, my hair, and even my beautiful garments, were soft and
dry as before the water touched them. The material out of which my robe
was fashioned was unlike anything that I had ever seen. It was soft and
light and shone with a faint luster, reminding me more of silk crepe
than anything I could recall, only infinitely more beautiful. It fell
about me in soft, graceful folds, which the water seemed to have
rendered even more lustrous than before.
"What marvelous water! What wonderful air!" I said to my
brother, as we again stepped upon the flowery field.
"Are all the rivers here like this one?"
"Not just the same, but similar," he replied.
We walked on a few steps, and then I turned and looked
back at the shining river flowing on tranquilly. "Frank, what has that
water done for me?" I said. "I feel as though I could fly."
He looked at me with earnest, tender eyes, as, he
answered gently, "It has washed away the last of the earth-life, and
fitted you for the new life upon which you have entered."
"It is divine!" I whispered.
"Yes, it is divine," he said.
WE walked on for some distance in silence, my
heart wrestling with the thoughts of the new, strange life, my eyes
drinking in fresh beauty at every step. The houses, as we approached and
passed them, seemed wondrously beautiful to me. They were built of the
finest marbles, encircled by broad verandas, the roofs or domes
supported by massive or delicate pillars or columns; and winding steps
led down to the pearl and golden walks. The style of the architecture
was unlike anything I had ever seen, and the flowers and vines that grew
luxuriantly everywhere surpassed in beauty even those of my brightest
dreams. Happy faces looked out from these columned walls, and happy
voices rang upon the clear air, from many a celestial home.
"Frank, where are we going?" at length I asked.
"Home, little sister," he answered tenderly.
"Home? Have we a home, my brother? Is it anything like
these?" I asked, with a wild desire in my heart to cry out for joy.
"Come and see," was his only answer, as he turned into a
side path leading toward an exquisitely beautiful house whose columns of
very light gray marble shone through the green of the overhanging trees
with most inviting beauty. Before I could join him, I heard a
well-remembered voice saying close beside me:
"I just had to be the first to bid you welcome!" and
looking around, I saw the dearly-beloved face of my old-time friend,
Mrs. Wickham.
"Oh! Oh!" I cried, as we met in a warm embrace.
"You will forgive me, Col. Sprague," she said a moment
later, giving her hand cordially to my brother. "It seems unpardonable
to intercept you thus, in almost the first hour, but I heard that she
was coming, and I could not wait. But now that I have looked upon her
face, and heard her dear voice, I will be patient till I can have her
for a long, long talk."
"You must come in and see her now," said my brother
cordially.
"Do, do come!" I urged.
"No, dear friends, not now. You know, dear little
Blossom," (the old pet name for me years ago) "we have all eternity
before us! But you will bring her to me soon, Col. Sprague?" she said.
"Just as soon as I may, dear madam," he replied, with an
expressive look into her eyes.
"Yes, I understand," she said softly, with a sympathetic
glance at me. Then with a warm handclasp, and the parting injunction,
"Come very soon," she passed swiftly out of my sight.
"Blessed woman!" I said, "what a joy to meet her again!"
"Her home is not far away; you can often see her. She is
indeed a lovely woman. Now, come, little sister, I long to give you
welcome to our home," saying which, he took my hand and led me up the
low steps on to the broad veranda, with its beautiful inlaid floor of
rare and costly marbles, and its massive columns of gray, between which,
vines covered with rich, glossy leaves of green were intermingled with
flowers of exquisite color and delicate perfume hanging in heavy
festoons. We paused a moment here, that I might see the charming view
presented on every side.
"It is heavenly!" I said.
"It is heavenly," he answered. "It could not be
otherwise."
I smiled my acknowledgment of this truth—my heart was
too full for words.
"The entire house, both below and above, is surrounded
by these broad verandas. But come within."
He led me through a doorway, between the marble columns,
into a large reception hall, whose inlaid floor, mullioned window, and
broad, low stairway at the far end, at once held my fancy. Before I
could speak, my brother turned to me, and, taking both my hands, said:
"Welcome, a thousand welcomes, dearest sister, to your
heavenly home!"
"Is this beautiful place indeed to be my home?" I asked,
as well as my emotion would allow.
"Yes, dear," he replied. "I built it for you and my
brother, and I assure you it has been a labor of love."
"It is your home, and I am to stay with you?" I said, a
little confused.
"No, it is your home, and I am to stay with you till my
brother comes."
"Always, dear brother, always!" I cried, clinging to his
arm.
He smiled and said, "We will enjoy the present; we never
will be far apart again. But come, I am eager to show you all."
Turning to the left, he led me, still through the
beautiful marble columns that everywhere seemed substituted for
doorways, into a large, oblong room, upon whose threshold I stopped in
wondering delight. The entire walls and floor of the room were still of
that exquisite light gray marble, polished to the greatest luster; but
over walls and floors were strewn exquisite, long-stemmed roses, of
every variety and color, from the deepest crimson to the most delicate
shades of pink and yellow.
"Come inside," said my brother.
"I do not wish to crush those perfect flowers," I
answered.
"Well, then, suppose we gather some of them."
I stooped to take one from the floor close to my feet,
when lo! I found it was imbedded in the marble. I tried another with the
same astonishing result, then turning to my brother, I said:
"What does it mean? You surely do not tell me that none
of these are natural flowers?"
He nodded his head with a pleased smile, then said:
"This room has a history. Come in and sit with me here upon this
window-seat, where you can see the whole room, and let me tell you about
it." I did as he desired, and he continued: "One day as I was busily
working upon the house, a company of young people, boys and girls, came
to the door, and asked if they might enter. I gladly gave assent, and
then one of them said,
"'Is this house really for Mr. and Mrs. Sprague?'
"'It is,' I answered. "'We used to know and love them.
They are our friends, and the friends of our parents, and we want to
know if we may not do something to help you make it beautiful?'
"'Indeed you may,' I said, touched by the request. 'What
can you do?'
"We were here at the time, and looking about, one of
them asked, 'May we beautify this room?'
"'Undoubtedly,' I said, wondering what they would try to
do.
"At once the girls, all of whom had immense bunches of
roses in their hands, began to throw the flowers broadcast over the
floor and against the walls. Wherever they struck the walls, they, to
even my surprise, remained, as though in some way permanently attached.
When the roses had all been scattered, the room looked just as it does
now, only the flowers were really fresh-gathered roses. Then the boys
each produced a small case of delicate tools, and in a moment all, boys
and girls, were down upon the marble floor and busy at work. How they
did it I do not know—it is one of the celestial arts, taught to those of
highly artistic tastes—but they embedded each living flower just where
and as it had fallen, in the marble, and preserved it as you see before
you. They came several times before the work was completed, for the
flowers do not wither here, nor fade, but were always fresh and perfect.
And such a merry, happy company of young people, I never saw before.
They laughed and chatted and sang, as they worked; and I could not help
wishing more than once that the friends whom they had left mourning for
them might look in upon this happy group, and see how little cause they
had for sorrow. At last when all was complete, they called me to see
their work, and I was not sparse in my praises either for the beauty of
the work or for their skill in performing it. Then, saying they would be
sure to return when either of you came, they went away together, to do
something of the kind elsewhere, I doubt not."
Happy tears had been dropping upon my hands, clasped
idly in my lap, during much of this narrative, and now I asked
half-brokenly, for I was greatly touched:
"Who were these lovely people, Frank? Do you know them?"
"Of course, I know them now; but they were all strangers
to me till they came here that first morning, except Lulu Sprague."
"Who are they?"
"There were three Marys—Mary Green, Mary Bates, Mary
Chalmers; Lulu Sprague and Mae Camden. These were the girls, each lovely
and beautiful. The boys, all manly, fine fellows, were Carroll Ashland,
Stanley and David Chalmers."
"Precious children!" I said. "How little I thought my
love for them, in the olden days, would ever bring to me this added
happiness here! How little we know of the links binding the two worlds!"
"Ah, yes I" said my brother, "that is just it. How
little we know! If only we could realize while we are yet mortals, that
day by day we are building for eternity, how different our lives in many
ways would be! Every gentle word, every generous thought, every
unselfish deed, will become a pillar of eternal beauty in the life to
come. We cannot be selfish and unloving in one life, and generous and
loving in the next; the two lives are too closely blended—one but a
continuation of the other. But come now to the library."
Rising, we crossed the room that henceforward was to
hold for me such tender associations, and entered the library.
It was a glorious apartment—the walls lined from ceiling
to floor with rare and costly books. A large, stained-glass window
opened upon the front veranda, and two large bow-windows, not far apart,
were in the back of the room. A semicircular row of shelves, supported
by very delicate pillars of gray marble, about six feet high, extended
some fifteen feet into the spacious main room and cut it into two
sections lengthwise, each with one of the bowed windows in the back,
leaving still a large space beyond the dividing line, where the two
sections united again into one. The concave side of the semicircle of
shelves was toward the entrance of the room; and close to it, not far
removed from the bowed window, stood a beautiful writing-desk, with
everything ready for use; and upon it was a chaste golden bowl, filled
with scarlet carnations, of whose spicy odor I had been dimly conscious
for some time.
"My brother's desk," said Frank.
"And his favorite flowers," I added.
"Yes, that follows. Here we never forget the tastes and
preferences of those we love."
It is not to be supposed that these details were at once noticed by me,
but they unfolded to me gradually as we lingered, talking together. My
first sensation upon entering the room was genuine surprise at the sight
of the books, and my first words were:
"Why, have we books in heaven?"
"Why not?" asked my brother. "What strange ideas we
mortals have of the pleasures and duties of this blessed life! We seem
to think that death of the body means an entire change to the soul. But
that is not the case, by any means. We bring to this life the same
tastes, the same desires, the same knowledge, we had before death. If
these were not sufficiently pure and good to form a part of this life,
then we ourselves may not enter. What would be the use of our oft-times
long lives, given to the pursuit of certain worthy and legitimate
knowledge, if at death it all counts as nothing, and we begin this life
on a wholly different line of thought and study? No, no; would that all
could understand, as I said before, that we are building for eternity
during our earthly life! The purer the thoughts, the nobler the
ambitions, the loftier the aspirations, the higher the rank we take
among the hosts of heaven; the more earnestly we follow the studies and
duties in our life of probation, the better fitted we shall be to carry
them forward, on and on to completion and perfection here."
"But the books—who writes them? Are any of them books we
knew and loved below?"
"Undoubtedly, many of them; all, indeed, that in any way
helped to elevate the human mind or immortal soul. Then, many of the
rarest minds in the earth-life, upon entering on this higher life, gain
such elevated and extended views of the subjects that have been with
them lifelong studies, that, pursuing them with zest, they write out for
the benefit of those less gifted, the higher, stronger views they have
themselves acquired, thus remaining leaders and teachers in this rarer
life, as they were while yet in the world. Is it to be expected that the
great soul who has so recently joined our ranks, whose Changed Life
and Pax Vobiscum uplifted so many lives while on earth,
should lay his pen aside when his clear brain and great heart have read
the mystery of the higher knowledge? Not so. When he has learned his
lessons well, he will write them out for the benefit of others, less
gifted, who must follow. Leaders there must always be, in this divine
life, as in the former life—leaders and teachers in many varied lines of
thought. But all this knowledge will come to you simply and naturally as
you grow into the new life."
AFTER a short rest in this lovely room among the
books, my brother took me through all the remaining rooms of the house,
each perfect and beautiful in its way, and each distinctly and
imperishably photographed upon my memory. Of only one other will I speak
at this time. As he drew aside the gauzy gray draperies, lined with the
most delicate shade of amber, which hung before the columned doorway of
a lovely room on the second floor of the house, he said:
"Your own special place for rest and study."
The entire second story of the house, indoors, instead
of being finished in gray marble, as was the first floor, was finished
with inlaid woods of fine, satiny texture and rare polish; and the room
we now entered was exquisite both in design and finish. It was oblong in
shape, with a large bowed window at one end, similar to those in the
library, a portion of which was directly beneath this room. Within this
window, on one side, stood a writing desk of solid ivory, with silver
appointments; and opposite was a case of well-filled bookshelves of the
same material. Among the books I found afterward many of my favorite
authors.
Rich rugs, silver-gray in color, lay scattered over the
floor, and all the hangings in the room were of the same delicate hue
and texture as those at the entrance. The framework of the furniture was
of ivory; the upholstering of chairs and ottomans of silver-gray cloth,
with the finish of finest satin; and the pillows and covering of the
dainty couch were of the same. A large bowl of wrought silver stood upon
the table near the front window, filled with pink and yellow roses,
whose fragrance filled the air; and several rarely graceful vases also
were filled with roses. The entire apartment was beautiful beyond
description; but I had seen it many times before I was fully able to
comprehend its perfect completeness.
Only one picture hung upon the walls, and that was a
life-size portrait of the Christ, just opposite the couch. It was not an
artist's conception of the human Christ, bowed under the weight of the
sins of the world, nor yet the thorn-crowned head of the crucified
Savior of mankind; but the likeness of the living Master, of Christ the
victorious, of Christ the crowned. The wonderful eyes looked directly
and tenderly into your own, and the lips seemed to pronounce the
benediction of peace. The ineffable beauty of the divine face seemed to
illumine the room with a holy light, and I fell upon my knees and
pressed my lips to the sandaled feet so truthfully portrayed upon the
canvas, while my heart cried, "Master, beloved Master and Savior!" It
was long before I could fix my attention on anything else; my whole
being was full of adoration and thanksgiving for the great love that had
guided me into this haven of rest, this wonderful home of peace and joy.
After some time spent in this delightful place, we
passed through the open window on to the marble terrace. A stairway of
artistically finished marble wound gracefully down from this terrace to
the lawn beneath the trees, no pathway of any kind approaching at its
foot—only the flowery turf. The fruit-laden branches of the trees hung
within easy reach from the terrace, and I noticed as I stood there that
morning seven varieties. One kind resembled our fine Bartlett pear, only
much larger, and infinitely more delicious to the taste, as I soon
found. Another variety was in clusters, the fruit also pear-shaped, but
smaller than the former, and of a consistency and flavor similar to the
finest frozen cream. A third, something like a banana in shape, they
called bread-fruit; it was not unlike our dainty finger-rolls to the
taste.
It seemed to me at the time, and really proved to be so,
that in variety and excellence, food for the most elegant repast was
here provided without labor or care. My brother gathered some of the
different varieties and bade me try them. I did so with much relish and
refreshment. Once the rich juice from the pearl-like fruit (whose
distinctive name I have forgotten, if indeed I ever knew it,) ran out
profusely over my hands and the front of my dress. "Oh!" I cried, "I
have ruined my dress, I fear!"
My brother laughed genially, as he said, "Show me the
stains."
To my amazement not a spot could I find.
"Look at your hands," he said.
I found them clean and fresh, as though just from the
bath.
"What does it mean? My hands were covered with the thick
juice of the fruit."
"Simply," he answered, "that no impurity can remain for
an instant in this air. Nothing decays, nothing tarnishes, or in any way
disfigures or mars the universal purity or beauty of the place. As fast
as the fruit ripens and falls, all that is not immediately gathered at
once evaporates, not even the seed remaining."
I had noticed that no fruit lay beneath the trees—this,
then, was the reason for it.
"'And there shall in no wise enter into it anything that
defileth,'" I quoted thoughtfully.
"Yes, even so," he answered; "even so."
We descended the steps and again entered the "flower
room." As I stood once more admiring the inlaid roses, my brother asked:
"Whom, of all the friends you have in heaven, do you
most wish to see?"
"My father and mother," I answered quickly.
He smiled so significantly that I hastily turned, and
there, advancing up the long room to meet me, I saw my dear father and
mother, and with them my youngest sister. With a cry of joy, I flew into
my father's outstretched arms, and heard, with a thrill of joy, his
dear, familiar "My precious little daughter!"
"At last! at last!" I cried, clinging to him. "At last I
have you again!"
"At last!" he echoed, with a deep-drawn breath of joy.
Then he resigned me to my dear mother, and we were soon clasped in each
other's embrace.
"My precious mother!" "My dear, dear child!" we cried
simultaneously; and my sister enfolding us both in her arms,—exclaimed
with a happy laugh, "I can not wait! I will not be left outside!" and
disengaging one arm, I threw it about her into the happy circle of our
united love.
Oh, what an hour was that! I did not dream that even
heaven could hold such joy.
After a time my brother, who had shared our joy, said,
"Now, I can safely leave you for a few hours to this blessed reunion,
for I have other work before me."
"Yes," said my father, "you must go. We will with joy
take charge of our dear child."
"Then for a brief while good-by," said my brother
kindly. "Do not forget that rest, especially to one but recently entered
upon the new life, is not only one of the pleasures, but one of the
duties of heaven."
"Yes, we will see that she does not forget that," said
my father, with a kindly smile and glance.
SOON after my brother's departure my mother said,
grasping my hand:
"Come, I am eager to have you in our own home,"
and we all passed out of the rear entrance, walked a few hundred yards
across the soft turf, and entered a lovely home, somewhat similar to our
own, yet still unlike it in many details. It also was built of marble,
but darker than that of my brother's home. Every room spoke of modest
refinement and cultivated taste, and the home air about it was at once
delightfully perceptible. My father's study was on the second floor, and
the first thing I noticed on entering was the luxuriant branches and
flowers of an old-fashioned hundred-leafed rose tree, that covered the
window by his desk.
"Ah!" I cried, "I can almost imagine myself in your old
study at home, when I look at that window."
"Is it not a reminder?" he said, laughing happily. "I almost think
sometimes it is the same dear old bush, transplanted here."
"And it is still your favorite flower?" I queried.
He nodded his head, and said, smiling: "I see you
remember still the childhood days," and he patted my cheek as I gathered
a rose and fastened it upon his breast.
"It seems to me this ought to be your home, dear; it is
our father's home," said my sister wistfully.
"Nay," my father quickly interposed. "Col. Sprague is
her legitimate guardian and instructor. It is a wise and admirable
arrangement. He is in every way the most suitable instructor she could
possibly have. Our Father never errs."
"Is not my brother's a lovely character?" I asked.
Lovely indeed; and he stands very near to the Master.
Few have a clearer knowledge of the Divine Will, hence few are better
fitted for instructors. But I, too, have duties that call me for a time
away. How blessed to know there can never again be long separations! You
will have two homes. now, dear child—your own and ours."
"Yes, yes!" I said. "I shall be here, I suspect, almost
as much as there."
At this moment a swift messenger approached my father
and spoke a few low words.
"Yes, I shall go at once," he replied, and, waving his
hand in adieu, departed with the angelic guide.
"Where do my father's duties mostly lie?" I asked my
mother.
"He is called usually to those who enter life with little
preparation—that which on earth we call death-bed repentance. You know
what wonderful success he always had in winning souls to Christ; and
these poor spirits need to be taught from the very beginning. They enter
the spirit-life in its lowest phase, and it is your father's pleasant
duty to lead them upward step by step. He is devoted to his work and
greatly beloved by those he thus helps. He often allows me to accompany
him and labor with him, and that is such a pleasure to me! And do you
know"—with an indescribable look of happiness—"I forget nothing now!"
It had been her great burden, for some years before her
death, that memory failed her sadly, and I could understand and
sympathize with her present delight.
"Dear heart!" I cried, folding my arms tenderly about
her, "then it is like the early years of your married life again?"
"Precisely," she answered joyously.
A little later my sister drew me tenderly aside and
whispered, "Tell me of my boy, of my precious son. I often see him; but
we are not permitted to know as much always of the earthly life as we
once believed we should. The Father's tender wisdom metes out to us the
knowledge he sees is best, and we are content to wait his time for more.
All you can tell would not be denied me. Is he surely, surely coming to
me sometime? Shall I hold him again in my arms, my darling boy?"
"I am sure—yes, I am sure you will. Your memory is very
precious to him."
Then I told her all I could recall of the son with whom
she had parted while he was but a child—now grown to man's estate,
honored and loved, with home and wife and son to comfort and bless him.
"Then I can wait," she said, "if he is sure to come to
me at last, when his earthly work is done, bringing his wife and son.
How I shall love them, too!"
At this moment I felt myself encircled by tender arms,
and a hand was gently laid on my eyes.
"Who is it?" some one whispered softly.
"Oh, I know the voice, the touch!—dearest, dearest
Nell!" I cried, and, turning quickly, threw my arms about the neck of my
only brother.
He gathered me a moment warmly to his heart, then in his
old-time playful way lifted me quite off my feet in his strong arms,
saying:
She has not grown an inch; and is not, I believe, a day
older than when we last parted! Is she, Joe?" turning to our sister.
"It does not seem so," said my sister, "but I thought
she would never come."
"Trust her for that!" he said. "But come, now; they have
had you long enough for the first visit; the rest of us want you for
awhile. Come with us, Jodie. Mother, I may have them both for a little
time, may I not? or will you come, too?" turning to our mother with a
caressing touch.
"I cannot go, dear boy; I must be here when your father
returns. Take your sisters; it is a blessed sight to see you all again
together."
"Come then," he said; and, each taking one of my hands,
we went out together.
"Halt!" he suddenly called, in his old-time military
fashion, after a short walk, and we stopped abruptly in front of a
dainty house built of the finest polished woods. It was beautiful both
in architecture and finish.
"How lovely!" I cried; and with a bow of charming
humility he said: "The home of your humble servant. Enter."
I paused a moment on the wide veranda to examine a vine,
wreathed about the graceful columns of highly-polished wood, and my
brother laughingly said to my sister:
"She is the same old Sis! We will not get much good out
of her until she has learned the name of every flower, vine and plant in
heaven."
"Yes, you will," I said, shaking my head at his happy
face, "but I mean to utilize you whenever I can; I have so much to
learn."
"So you shall, dear," he answered gently. "But come in."
Stepping inside a lovely vestibule, Gut of which opened,
from every side, spacious rooms, he called softly, "Alma!" At once from
one of these, a fair woman approached us.
"My dear child!" I said, "it does not seem possible! You
were but a child when I last saw you."
"She is still her father's girl," said my brother, with
a fond look. "She and Carrie, whom you never saw, make a blessed home
for me. Where is your sister, daughter?"
"She is at the great music-hall. She has a very rich
voice that she is cultivating," Alma said, turning to me. "We were going
to find our aunt when she returned," she added.
"True, true," said my brother; "but come."
Then they showed me the lovely home, perfect and
charming in every detail. When we came out upon a side veranda, I saw we
were so near an adjoining house that we could easily step from one
veranda to the other.
"There!" said my brother, lightly lifting me over the
intervening space. "There is some one here you will wish to see." Before
I could question him, he led me through the columned doorway, saying,
"People in heaven are never 'not at home' to their friends."
The house we entered was almost identical in
construction and finish with that of my brother Nell, and, as we
entered, three persons came eagerly forward to greet me.
"Dear Aunt Gray!" I cried. "My dear Mary—my dear Martin!
What a joy to meet you again!"
And here," said my aunt reverently. Yes, here," I
answered in like tone.
It was my father's sister, always a favorite aunt, with
her son and his wife. How we did talk and cling to one another, and ask
and answer questions!
"Pallas is also here, and Will, but they have gone with
Carrie to the music hall," said Martin.
"Martin, can you sing here?" I asked. He always was
trying to sing on earth, but could not master a tune.
"A little," he answered, with his old genial laugh and
shrug; "we can do almost anything here that we really try to do."
"You should hear him now, cousin, when he tries to
sing," said his wife, with a little touch of pride in her voice. "You
would not know it was Martin. But is it not nice to have Dr. Nell so
near us? We are almost one household, you see. All felt that we must be
together."
"It is indeed," I answered, "although you no longer need
him in his professional capacity."
"No, thanks to the Father; but we need him quite as much
in many other ways."
"I rather think I am the one to be grateful," said my
brother. "But, sister, I promised Frank that you should go to your own
room awhile; he thought it wise that you should be alone for a time.
Shall we go now?"
"I am ready," I answered, "though these delightful
reunions leave no desire for rest."
"How blessed," said my aunt, "that there is no limit
here to our mutual enjoyment! We have nothing to dread, nothing to fear.
We know at parting that we shall meet again. We shall often see each
other, my child."
Then my brother went with me to my own home, and, with a
loving embrace, left me at the door of my room.
Once within, I lay down upon my couch to think over the
events of this wonderful day; but, looking upward at the divine face
above me, I forgot all else, and, Christ's peace enfolding me like a
mantle, I became "as one whom his mother comforteth." While I lay in
this blissful rest, my brother Frank returned, and, without rousing me,
bore me in his strong arms again to earth. I did not know, when he left
us in our home, upon what mission he was going, though my father knew it
was to return to my dear husband and accompany him upon his sad journey
to his dead wife; to comfort and sustain and strengthen him in those
first lonely hours of sorrow. They deemed it best, for wise reasons,
that I should wait awhile before returning, and taste the blessedness of
the new life, thus gaining strength for the trial before me.
WHEN
I aroused from my sleep it was in the gray light of earth's morning, and
I was standing on the doorstep of the house in Kentville that my brother
and I had left together, some thirty-six hours before, reckoned by earth
time. I shuddered a little with a strange chill when I saw where we
were, and turned quickly to my brother Frank, who stood beside me. He
put his arm about me, and with a reassuring smile, said:
"For their
sakes be brave and strong, and try to make them understand your blessed
change."
I did not
try to answer, though I took heart, and entered with him into the house.
Everything was very quiet—no one seemed astir. My brother softly opened
a door immediately to the right of the entrance, and motioned me to
enter. I did so, and he closed it behind me, remaining himself outside.
Something
stood in the center of the room, and I soon discovered that it was a
pall. It was a great relief to me to see that it was not black, but a
soft shade of gray. Someone was kneeling beside it, and as I slowly
approached I saw it was my dear son. He was kneeling upon one knee, with
his elbow resting on the other knee, and his face buried in his hand.
One arm was thrown across the casket, as though he were taking a last
embrace of his "little mother." I saw that the form within the casket
lay as though peacefully sleeping, and was clad in silver gray, with
soft white folds about the neck and breast. I was grateful that they had
remembered my wishes so well.
I put my
arms about the neck of my darling son, and drew his head gently against
my breast, resting my cheek upon his bowed head. Then I whispered,
"Dearest, I am here beside you—living, breathing, strong and well. Will
you not turn to me, instead of to that lifeless form in the casket? It
is only the worn-out tenement—I am your living mother."
He lifted
his head as though listening; then, laying his hand tenderly against the
white face in the casket he whispered, "Poor, dear little mother!" and
again dropped his face into both hands, while his form shook with
convulsive sobs.
As I
strove to comfort him, the door opened and his lovely girl-wife entered.
I turned to meet her as she came slowly towards us. Midway in the room
we met, and, taking both her hands tenderly in mine, I whispered,
"Comfort him, darling girl, as only you can; he needs human love."
She paused
a moment irresolutely, looking directly into my eyes, then passed on and
knelt beside him, laying her upturned face against his shoulder. I saw
his arm steal around her and draw her closely to him, then I passed from
the room, feeling comforted that they were together.
Outside
the door I paused an instant, then, slowly ascending the stairs, I
entered the once familiar room, whose door was standing ajar. All
remained as when I had left it, save that no still form lay upon the
white bed. As I expected, I found my precious husband in this room. He
sat near the bay window, his arm resting upon the table, and his eyes
bent sorrowfully upon the floor. My heart's best friend sat near him and
seemed trying to comfort him. When I entered the room our brother Frank
arose from a chair close beside him and passed out, with a sympathetic
look at me. I went at once to my dear husband, put my arms about him,
and whispered:
"Darling!
darling, I am here!"
He stirred
restlessly without changing his position.
Virginia
said, as though continuing a conversation, "I am sure she would say you
left no thing undone that could possibly be done for her."
"She is
right," I whispered.
"Still she
was alone at the last," he moaned.
"Yes,
dear, but who could know it was the last? She sank so suddenly under the
pain. What can I say to comfort you? Oh, Will, come home with us! She
would want you to, I am sure."
He shook
his head sadly, while the tears were in his eyes, as he said: "Work is
my only salvation. I must go back in a very few days."
She said
no more, and he leaned back wearily in his easy chair. I crept more
closely to him and suddenly his arms closed about me. I whispered,
"There, dear, do you not see that I am really with you?"
He was
very still, and the room was very quiet but for the ticking of my little
clock still standing upon the dressing-case. Presently I knew by his
regular breathing that he had found a short respite from his sorrow. I
slipped gently from his arms and went to my friend, kneeling beside her,
and folding my arms about her.
"Virginia,
Virginia! You know I am not dead! Why do you grieve?"
She looked
over at the worn face of the man before her, then dropped her face into
her hand, whispering, as though she had heard me and would answer:
"Oh,
Bertha darling, how could you leave him?"
"I am
here, dearest! Do realize that I am here!"
She did
not heed me, but sat absorbed in sorrowful thought.
A few
minutes later a stranger entered the room, and in a low voice said
something about its being "near train time," and brought my husband his
hat. He arose and gave his arm to Virginia, and, our son and his wife
meeting them at the door, they started to descend the stairs. Just then
my husband paused and cast one sorrowful glance around the room, his
face white with pain. Our dear daughter stepped quickly to him, and,
placing, both arms about his neck, drew his face down to hers. ("God
bless her in all things!" I softly prayed.) An instant they stood thus,
then stifling his emotion, they all passed down the stairs into the room
I had first entered.
I kept
very close to my dear husband, and never for a single instant left him
through all the solemn and impressive services; through the sad journey
to our old home; the last rites at the grave; the after-meeting with
friends; and his final return to the weary routine of labor. How
thankful I was that I had been permitted to taste, during that wonderful
day in heaven, the joys of the blessed life! How else could I ever have
passed calmly through those trying scenes, and witnessed the sorrow of
those so dear to my heart? I recognize the wisdom and mercy of the
Father in having so ordered it.
I soon found that my husband was right; work was his great refuge.
During the day the routine of labor kept brain and hands busy, leaving
the heart but little opportunity to indulge its sorrow. Night was his
trying time.—Kind friends would stay with him till bedtime; after that
he was alone. He would turn restlessly on his pillow, and often arise
and go into the adjoining room that had formerly been mine, and gaze
upon the vacant bed with tearful eyes. It took all my powers to in any
degree soothe and quiet him.
After a
time my brother Frank and I arranged to spend alternate nights with him,
that he might never be alone, and especially were we with him upon his
journeys. We found to our great joy that our influence over him was
hourly growing stronger, and we were able to guide and help him in many
ways.
One night
as I was silently watching beside him while he slept, many months after
he was alone, I became conscious that evil threatened him. He was
sleeping very peacefully, and I knew his dreams were happy ones by the
smile upon his dear face. I passed into the hall of the hotel where he
was staying, and found it dense with smoke. I hastened back to him and
called, and tried to shake him, but he slept on peacefully.
Then I
called with all my strength, "Will!" close to his ear.
Instantly
he started up and said, "Yes, dear, I am coming!" just as he used to do
when I called at night. Then in a moment he sank back with a sigh upon
his pillow, murmuring, "What a vivid dream! I never heard her voice more
distinctly in life."
"Will!" I
again called, pulling him by the hand with an my strength, "rise
quickly! Your life is in danger!"
In an
instant he was out of bed, upon his feet, and hurriedly drawing on his
clothes. am sure I cannot tell why I am doing this," he muttered to
himself. "I only feel that I must! That surely was her voice I heard."
"Hurry!
Hurry!" I urged.
He opened
the door and met, not only the smoke, but tongues of flame.
"Do not
try the stairway—come!" and I drew him past the stairway, and through a
narrow entrance to a second hall beyond, and down a second flight of
stairs, filled with smoke, but as yet no flame. Another flight still
below these, then into the open air, where he staggered, faint and
exhausted, on to the sidewalk, and was quickly helped by friends into a
place of safety.
"I
am sure I cannot tell what
wakened me," he afterward said to a friend. "I dreamed I heard my wife
calling me, and before I knew it I was dressing myself."
"You did
hear her, I have no doubt," she said. "Are they not 'all ministering
spirits, sent forth to do service for the sake of them that shall
inherit salvation'? What lovelier service could she do than to thus save
the life of one so dear to her, whose earth-work was not yet done? Yes,
you did hear her call you in time to escape. Thank God for such
ministrations."
"Yes, it
must be so," he answered,—with a happy look.
"Thank God
indeed."
After this
he yielded much more readily to our influence, and thus began to enjoy,
while yet upon earth, the reunion that so surely awaited us in the
blessed life. I often went also to the home of our dear children, but
there was so much to make them happy that they did not need me as their
father did. Sometimes in hours of great physical prostration, especially
during the absence of his wife, I found that I could quiet the
overwrought nerves of my dear son, and lead his tired mind to restful
thoughts; but with youth and strength and love to support him, the time
had not yet come when my ministrations were essential.
THE first time I returned to the dear heavenly home after my long
delay on earth, as I approached the entrance, in the company of my
brother Frank, we saw a tall young man standing close by the open gate,
looking wistfully the way we came. As we drew near, he said in an almost
pathetic voice:
"Is my mother coming?"
A closer scrutiny revealed his identity, and I exclaimed
with joy, extending both hands to him, "My dear Carroll!"
He smiled a bright welcome as he extended his hands, but
said wistfully, "I so hoped my mother would return with you, aunt, when
you came back. Did you see her?"
"Once only, for a brief moment. She is very happy and
bears her years well. She will come to you now before long, but then you
know it will be forever."
"Yes, I know," he answered brightly. "I will be patient.
But," he added confidentially, "I so want her to see the lovely home I
myself am building for her. Will you come and see it?"
"Of course I will, gladly."
"Now?"
"Yes, if I may"; looking at my brother for his sanction.
He nodded his head pleasantly as he said: "That is right, Carroll. Have
her help you in every way you can. I will leave you two together, and
you will bring her to me later?"
"Indeed, yes," said my nephew; and we went away happily
together.
"Where is this wonderful house, Carroll?"
"Not very far beyond Mrs. Wickham's," he said.
We soon reached it, and I was truly charmed with it in
every way. It was fashioned much like my brother Nell's home, and was,
like it, built of polished woods. It was only partly finished, and was
most artistically done. Although uncompleted, I was struck with the fact
that everything was perfect so far as finished. There was no debris
anywhere; no chips, no shavings, no dust. The wood seemed to have been
perfectly prepared elsewhere—where, I have no idea. The pieces were made
to fit accurately, like the parts of a great puzzle. It required much
skill and artistic taste to properly adjust each to its place. This, my
nephew, who even in the earthly life was quite a mechanical genius,
seemed to have no difficulty in doing, and the house was slowly growing
into beauty and symmetry. After showing me all over the house, he at
last drew aside the hangings before an entrance, beyond which were two
rooms, not only entirely finished, but beautifully furnished as well.
"I finished and furnished these rooms complete, so that
if mother came before the house was ready, she could occupy them at
once. You know there is no noise from workmen here; no hammering, no
unwelcome sounds."
I thought at once of the Temple of Jerusalem, where,
during its erection, there was "neither hammer, nor axe, nor any tool of
iron heard in the house."
"It is very beautiful, my dear boy," I said
enthusiastically. "It will give her great joy to know you did it for
her. But what is this—a fireplace?" pausing before a lovely open
chimney, wherein wood was piled ready to be lighted. "Is it ever cold
enough here for fires?"
"It is never cold," he answered, "but the fire here
never sends out unneeded warmth. We have its cheer and beauty and glow,
without any of its discomforts. You remember my mother loves to sit by
an open fire; so I have arranged this for her."
"It is charming! But you did not make the stained-glass
windows also?"
"No, I have a friend who has been taught that art, and
we exchange work. He helps me with the windows, and I in turn help him
with his fine woodwork and inlaying. I am going to make a 'flower room'
for my mother similar to yours, only of lilies and violets, which will
retain their perfume always."
"How lovely! I want to thank you, dear Carroll, for your
share in our 'flower room.' It is the most exquisite work I ever saw;
and it is doubly so when I remember whose hands fashioned it."
"It was a labor of love with us all," he said simply.
"That is what enhances its beauty for me," I said. "But
sit here by me now, and tell me about yourself. Do you spend all your
time at this delightful work?"
"Oh, no, indeed! Perhaps what we used to call two or
three hours daily. Much of my time is still spent with my Grandfather
R—. I do not know what I should have done when I first came here, but
for him. I was so ignorant about this life, and came so suddenly."
"Yes, dear boy, I know," I said sympathetically.
He met me at the very entrance, and took me at once
home, where he and Grandma did everything possible to instruct and help
me. But I was, I am still, far below what I ought to be. I would give a
year out of this blessed life—I would even go back to the old life for
an entire year—if I only could go to my old friends, or better, into
every Sunday-school in the world, and beseech the girls and boys to try
to understand and profit by the instruction there received. Why, I used
to go to Sunday-school, Sunday after Sunday, help sing the hymns, and
read the lesson, and listen to all that was said; and I really enjoyed
every moment of the time. Sometimes I would feel a great longing after a
better life, but there seemed to be no one to especially guide or help
me, and, the greater part of the time, what I heard one Sunday was never
once spoken of or even thought of till another Sunday came, so that the
impression made was very transient. Why do not boys and girls talk more
together about what they hear at Sunday-school? We were all ready enough
to talk about a show of any kind, after it was over, but seldom of the
Sunday-school, when together socially. Why do not teachers take more
interest in the daily lives of their scholars? Why is there so little
really helpful talk in ordinary home life? Oh, I wish I could go back
and tell them this!"
His face beamed with enthusiasm as he talked, and I, too, wished it
might be possible for him to do as he desired. But alas! " they will not
be persuaded even if one arise from the dead," I thought.
"It is now time for me to go with my grandfather," he
said, rising, "but we will walk together as far as your home; and you
will let me often see you, will you not?"
"Gladly," I answered, as we set forth.
We still conversed of many things, as we walked, and
when we parted at the door I said, "I am soon to learn how to weave
lovely draperies; then I can help you, when you are ready for them."
"That will make my work more delightful still," was his
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7. Meeting Loved Ones |
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AS time passed, and I grew more accustomed to the heavenly life around
me, I found its loveliness unfolded to me like the slow opening of a
rare flower. Delightful surprises met me at every turn. Now a dear
friend, from whom I had parted years ago in the earth-life, would come
unexpectedly upon me with cordial greeting; now one—perhaps on earth
greatly admired, but from whom I had held aloof, from the fear of
unwelcome intrusion—would approach me, showing the lovely soul so full
of responsive kindness and congenial thought,—that I could but feel a
pang of regret for what I had lost. Then the clear revelation of some
truth, only partly understood in life, though eagerly sought for, would
stand out clear and strong before me, overwhelming me with its lustre,
and perhaps showing the close tie linking the earth-life with the
divine. But the most wonderful to me was the occasional meeting with
some one whom I had never hoped to meet "over there," who, with eager
handclasp and tearful eyes, would pour forth his earnest thanks for some
helpful word, some solemn warning, or even some stern rebuke, that had
turned him, all unknown to myself, from the paths of sin into the "life
everlasting." Oh, the joy to me of such a revelation! Oh, the regret
that my earth-life had not been more full of such work for eternity!
My first impulse daily on arousing from happy, blissful rest, was to
hasten to the "river of life" and plunge into its wonderful waters, so
refreshing, so invigorating, so inspiring. With a heart full of
thanksgiving and lips full of joyful praise, morning after morning,
sometimes in company with my brother, sometimes alone, I hastened
thither, returning always full of new life and hope and purpose to our
home, where for a time each day I listened to the entrancing revelations
and instructions of my brother. One morning, soon after my return from
my first visit to earth, as I was on the way to the river, my voice
joined to the wonderful anthem of praise everywhere sounding, I saw a
lovely young girl approaching me swiftly, with outstretched arms.
"Dear, dear Aunt Bertha!" she called, as she drew near, do you not know
me?"
"My little Mae!" I cried, gathering the dainty creature into my arms.
"Where did you spring from so suddenly,
dear? Let me look at you again!" holding her a moment at arm's length,
only to draw her again tenderly to me.
"You have grown very beautiful, my child. I may say this to you here
without fear, I am sure. You were always lovely; you are simply radiant
now. Is it this divine life?"
"Yes," she said modestly and sweetly; "but most of all the being near
the Savior so much."
"Ah, yes, that is it—the being near Him! That will make any being
radiant and beautiful," I said.
"He is so good to me; so generous, so tender! He seems to forget how
little I have done to deserve his care."
"He knows you love him, dear heart; that means everything to him."
"Love him! Oh, if loving him deserves reward, I am sure I ought to have
every wish of my heart, for I love him a thousand-fold better than
anything in earth or heaven. I would die for him!"
The sweet face grew surpassingly radiant and beautiful as she talked,
and I began to dimly understand the wonderful power of Christ among the
redeemed in heaven. This dear child, so lovely in all mortal graces, so
full of earth's keenest enjoyments during the whole of her brief
life—pure and good, as we count goodness below, yet seemingly too
absorbed in life's gayeties to think deeply of the things she yet in her
heart revered and honored, now in this blessed. life counted the
privilege of loving Christ, of being near him, beyond every other joy!
And how that love refined
and beautified the giver! As a great earthly love always shines through
the face and elevates the whole character of the one who loves, so this
divine love uplifts and glorifies the giver, until not only the face but
the entire person radiates the glory that fills the heart.
"Come with me to the river, Mae," I said presently, after we had talked
together for some time; "come with me for a delightful plunge."
"Gladly," she said; "but have you ever been to the lake or the sea?"
"The lake or the sea?" I echoed. "No indeed. Are there a lake and sea
here?"
"Certainly there are," said Mae, with a little pardonable pride that she
should know more of the heavenly surroundings than I. "Shall we go to
the lake to-day, and leave the sea for another day? Which shall it be?"
"Let it be the lake today," I said.
So, turning in an entirely different direction from the path that led to
the river, we walked joyously on, still talking as we went. So much to
ask, so much to recall, so much to look forward to with joy!
Once she turned to me and asked quickly,
"When is my Uncle Will coming?"
My hand closed tightly over hers, and a sob almost rose in my throat,
though I answered calmly:
"That is in God's hands alone; we may not question."
"Yes, I know. His will is always right; but I so long to see my dear
uncle again; and to 'long' is not to repine."
She had grown so womanly, so wise, this child of tender years, since we
parted, that it was a joy to talk with her. I told her of my sad errand
to earth, and the sorrow of the dear ones I had left.
"Yes, yes, I know it all!" she whispered, with her soft arms about me.
"But it will not be long to wait. They will come soon. It never seems
long to wait for anything here. There is always so much to keep one
busy; so many pleasant duties, so many joys—oh, it will not be long!"
Thus she cheered and comforted me as we walked through the ever-varying
and always perfect landscape. At length she cried, lifting her arm and
pointing with her rosy finger,
"Behold! Is it not divinely beautiful?"
I caught my breath, then stopped abruptly and covered my face with my
hands to shield my eyes from the glorified scene. No wonder my brother
had not sooner brought me to this place; I was scarcely yet spiritually
strong enough to look upon it. When I again slowly lifted my head, Mae
was standing like one entranced. The golden morning light rested upon
her face, and, mingling with the radiance that had birth within, almost
transfigured her. Even she, so long an inhabitant here, had not yet
grown accustomed to its glory
"Look, darling auntie! It is God's will that you should see," she softly
whispered, not once turning her eyes away
from the scene before her. "He let me be the one to show you the glory
of this place!"
I turned and looked, like one but half awakened. Before us spread a lake
as smooth as glass, but flooded with a golden glory caught from the
heavens, that made it like a sea of molten gold. The blossom- and
fruit-bearing trees grew down to its very border in many places, and
far, far away, across its shining waters, arose the domes and spires of
what seemed to be a mighty city. Many people were resting upon its
flowery banks, and on the surface of the water were boats of wonderful
structure, filled with happy souls, and propelled by an unseen power.
Little children, as well as grown persons, were floating upon or
swimming in the water; and as we looked a band of singing cherubs,
floating high overhead, drifted across the lake, their baby voices borne
to us where we stood, in notes of joyful praise.
"Come," said Mae, seizing my hand, "let us join them" and we hastened
onward.
"Glory and honor!" sang the child voices. "Dominion and power!" caught
up and answered the voices of the vast multitude together, and in the
strain I found that Mae and I were joining. The cherub band floated
onward, and away in the distance we caught the faint melody of their
sweet voices, and the stronger cadence of the response from those
waiting below.
We stood upon the margin of the lake, and my cheeks were tear-bedewed
and my eyes dim with emotion. I felt
weak as a little child; but oh, what rapture, what joy unspeakable
filled and overmastered me! Was I dreaming? Or was this indeed but
another phase of the immortal life?
Mae slipped her arm about my neck and whispered, "Dearest, come. After the rapture—rest."
I yielded to her passively; I could not do otherwise. She led me into
the water, down, down into its crystal depths, and when it seemed to me
we must be hundreds of feet beneath the surface, she threw herself
prostrate and bade me do the same. I did so, and immediately we began to
slowly rise. Presently I found that we no longer rose, but were slowly
floating in mid-current, many feet still beneath the surface. Then
appeared to me a marvel. Look where I would, perfect prismatic rays
surrounded me. I seemed to be resting in the heart of a prism; and such
vivid yet delicate coloring, mortal eyes never rested upon. Instead of
the seven colors, as we see them here, the colors blended in such rare
graduation of shades as to make the rays seem almost infinite, or they
really were so; I could not decide which.
As I lay watching this marvelous panorama, for the colors deepened and
faded like the lights of the aurora borealis, I was attracted by the
sound of distant music. Although Mae and I no longer clung together, we
did not drift apart, as one would naturally suppose we might, but lay
within easy speaking-distance of each other, although few words were
spoken by either of us; the silence seemed too sacred to be lightly
broken. We lay upon, or rather within, the water, as upon the softest
couch. It required no effort whatever to keep ourselves afloat; the
gentle undulation of the waves soothed and rested us. When the distant
music arrested my attention, I turned and looked at Mae. She smiled back
at me, but did not speak. Presently I caught the words, "Glory and
honor, dominion and power," and I knew it was still the cherub choir,
although they must now be many miles distant. Then the soft tones of a
bell—a silver bell with silver tongue—fell on my ear, and as the last
notes died away, I whispered,
"Tell me, Mae."
"Yes, dear, I will. The waters of this lake catch the light in a most
marvelous manner, as you have seen; a wiser head than mine must tell you
why. They also transmit musical sounds—only musical sounds—for a great
distance. The song was evidently from the distant shore of the lake."
"And the bell?"
"That is the bell which in the city across the lake calls to certain
duties at this hour."
"There never was a sweeter call to duty," I said.
"Yes, its notes are beautiful. Hark! now it rings a chime."
We lay and listened, and as we listened a sweet spell wrapped me round,
and I slept as peacefully as a child on its mother's bosom. I awoke with
a strange sense of invigoration and strength. It was a feeling wholly
dissimilar to that experienced during a bath in the river, yet I could
not explain how. Mae said,
"One takes away the last of the earth-life, and prepares us for the life
upon which we enter; the other fills us to overflowing with a draught
from the Celestial Life itself."
And I think the child was right.
When we emerged from the water we found the banks of the lake almost
deserted, every one having gone, at the call of the bell, to the happy
duties of the hour. Groups of children still played around in joyous
freedom. Some climbed the trees that overhung the water, with the
agility of squirrels, and dropped with happy shouts of laughter into the
lake, floating around upon its surface like immense and beautiful
water-lilies or lotus flowers.
"No fear of harm or danger; no dread of ill, or anxiety lest a mishap
occur; security, security and joy and peace! This is indeed the blessed
life," I said, as we stood watching the sports of the happy children.
"I often think how we were taught to believe that heaven was where we
would wear crowns of gold and stand with harps always in our hands! Our
crowns of gold are the halos His blessed presence casts about us; and we
do not need harps to accentuate our songs of praise. We do see the
crowns, and we do hear the angelic harps, when and as God wills it, but
our best worship is to do his blessed will," said Mae as we turned to
go.
"You are wise in the lore of heaven, my child," I answered; "how happy I
am to learn from one so dear! Tell me all about your life here."
So as we walked she told me the history of her years in
heaven—her duties, her joys, her friends, her home—with all the old-time
freedom. I found her home was distant from our own—far beyond the spires
of the great city across the lake—but she added,
"What is distance in heaven? We come and go at will. We feel no fatigue,
no haste, experience no delays; it is blessed, blessed!"
Not far from our home we saw a group of children playing upon the grass,
and in their midst was a beautiful great dog, over which they were
rolling and tumbling with the greatest freedom. As we approached he
broke away from them and came bounding to meet us, and crouched and
fawned at my very feet with every gesture of glad welcome.
"Do you not know him, auntie?" Mae asked brightly.
"It is dear old Sport!" I cried, stooping and placing my arms about big
neck, and resting my head on his silken hair. "Dear old fellow! How happy I am to have you here!"
He responded to my caresses with every expression of delight, and Mae
laughed aloud at our mutual joy.
"I have often wondered if I should not some day find him here. He surely
deserves a happy life for his faithfulness and devotion in the other
life. His intelligence and his fidelity were far above those of many
human beings whom we count immortal."
"Did he not sacrifice his life for little Will?"
"Yes; he attempted to cross the track in front of an approaching train,
because he saw it would pass between him and his little master, and
feared he was in danger. It cost his life. He always placed himself
between any of us and threatened danger, but Will he seemed to consider
his especial charge. He was a gallant fellow—he deserves immortality.
Dear, dear old Sport, you shall never leave me again!" I said, caressing
him fondly.
At this he sprang to his feet, barking joyously, and gamboled and
frolicked before us the rest of the way home, then lay down upon the
doorstep, with an upward glance and a wag of his bushy tail, as though
to say, "See how I take you at your word!"
"He understands every word we say," said Mae.
"Of course he does; he only lacks speech to make him perfect. I somehow
hoped he might find it here."
"He would not be half so interesting if he could talk," said Mae.
"Possibly not. How silken and beautiful his long hair is!"
"He has his bath in the river every day, and it leaves its mark on him
also. Do you know I think one of the sweetest proofs we have of the
Father's loving care for us is, that we so often find in this life the
things which gave us great happiness below. The more unexpected this is,
the greater joy it brings—I remember once seeing a beautiful little girl
enter heaven, the very first to come of a large and affectionate family.
I afterward learned that the sorrowful cry of her mother was, 'Oh, if
only we had someone there to meet her, to care for her!' She came,
lovingly nestled in the Master's own arms, and a little later, as he
sat, still caressing and talking to her, a remarkably fine Angora
kitten, of which the child had been very fond, and which had sickened
and died some weeks before, to her great sorrow, came running across the
grass and sprang directly into her arms, where it lay contentedly. Such
a glad cry as she recognized her little favorite, such a hugging and
kissing as that kitten received, made joy even in heaven! Who but our
loving Father would have thought of such comfort for a little child? She
had evidently been a timid child; but now as the children gathered about
her, with the delightful freedom they always manifest in the presence of
the beloved Master, she, looking up confidingly into the tender eyes
above her, began to shyly tell of the marvelous intelligence of her dumb
pet, until at last Jesus left her contentedly playing among the flowers
with the little companions who had gathered about her. Our Father never
forgets us, but provides pleasures and comforts for us all, according to
our individual needs."
"When shall I behold the Savior? When shall I meet, face to face, him
whom my soul so loveth?" my hungry heart began to cry, out in its
depths.
Mae, as though understanding the silent cry, placed both arms about my
neck, looked tenderly into my eyes, and whispered:
"You, too, dearest, will see him soon. He never delays when the time is
ripe for his coming. It will not be long; you, too, will see him soon."
So we parted, each to the duties of the hour.
THE following
morning my brother said to me, after an interesting hour
of instruction,
"Shall we go for the promised visit to Mrs. Wickham now?"
"Indeed, yes!" I answered eagerly; so we at once set forth.
We soon reached her lovely home and found her waiting at
the entrance as though expecting us. After a cordial greeting to our
friend, my brother said,
"I will leave you together for that 'long talk' for which I know you are
both eager, and will go my way to other duties. I will find you, later
on, at home." The last remark to me.
"All right," I answered. I am familiar with the way now, and need no
attendance.
After he had gone, my friend took me all over her lovely home, showing
me, with great pleasure, the rooms prepared for each beloved member of
her earthly household still to
come. One very large room, into whose open windows at each end the
blossom- and fruit-laden boughs of the immortal trees looked invitingly,
was evidently her especial care; she whispered to me, "Douglass always
did like a large room. I am sure he will like this one." And I was also
sure.
Returning down the broad stairway, we found it entered into a very large
music-room, with broad galleries supported by marble columns, running
across three sides of it, on a level with the second floor. In this
gallery was a number of musical instruments—harps, viols, and some
unlike any instruments I had ever seen elsewhere. The room itself was
filled with easy-chairs, couches and window-seats, where listeners could
rest and hear the sweet harmonies from the galleries.
"My daughter," my friend explained, who left us in early childhood, has
received a fine musical training here, and is fond of gathering in her
young friends and giving us quite often a musical treat. You know our
old home of Springville has furnished some rare voices for the heavenly
choirs. Mary Allis, Will Griggs, and many others you will often hear in
this room, I trust."
We reentered, from this room, the dainty reception hall opening upon
the front veranda and outer steps. Here Mrs. Wickham drew me to a seat
beside her and said,
"Now, tell me everything of the dear home and all its blessed inmates."
Holding each other's hands as we talked, she questioning, I answering,
things too sacred to be repeated here were dwelt upon for hours. At last
she said, rising hastily, "I will leave you for a little while—nay, you must not as I would have
risen, "there is much yet to be said; wait here, I will return."
I had already learned not to question the judgment of these wiser
friends, and yielded to her will. As she passed through the doorway to
the inner house, I saw a stranger at the front entrance and arose to
meet him. He was tall and commanding in form, with a face of ineffable
sweetness and beauty. Where had I seen him before? Surely, surely I had
met him since I came. "Ah, now I know!" I thought; "it is St. John, the
beloved disciple." He had been pointed out to me one morning by the
riverside.
"Peace be unto this house," was his salutation as he entered.
How his voice stirred and thrilled me! No wonder the Master loved him,
with that voice and that face! "Enter. Thou art a welcome guest. Enter, and I will call the mistress," I
said, as I approached to bid him welcome.
"Nay, call her not. She knows that I am here; she will return," he said.
"Sit thou awhile beside me," he continued, as he saw that I still stood,
after I had seen him seated. He arose and led me to a seat near him, and
like a child
I did as I was bidden; still watching, always watching, the wonderful
face before me.
You have but lately come?" he said.
Yes, I am here but a short time. So short that I know not how to reckon
time as you count it here," I answered.
"Ah, that matters little," he said with a gentle smile.
"Many cling always to the old reckoning and the earth-language. It is a
link between the two lives; we would not have it otherwise. How does the
change impress you? How do you find life here?"
"Ah," I said, "if they could only know! I never fully understood till
now the meaning of that sublime passage, 'Eye hath not seen, nor ear
heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God
hath prepared for them that love him.' It is indeed past human
conception." I spoke with deep feeling.
"'For them that love him'? Do you believe that all Christians truly love
him?" he asked.
"Do you think they love the Father for the gift of the
Son and the Son because of the Father's love and mercy? Or is their
worship ofttimes that of duty rather than love?" He spoke reflectively
and gently.
"Oh," I said, "you who so well know the beloved Master—who were so loved
by him—how can you doubt the love he must inspire in all hearts who seek
to know him?"
A radiant glow overspread the wonderful face, which he lifted, looking
directly at me—the mist rolled away from
before my eyes and I knew him! With a low cry of joy and adoration, I
threw myself at his feet, bathing them with happy tears. He gently
stroked my bowed head for a moment, then rising, lifted me to his side.
"My Savior—my King!" I whispered, clinging closely to him.
"Yes, and Elder Brother and Friend," he added, wiping away tenderly the
tears stealing from beneath my closed eyelids.
"Yes, yes, 'the chiefest among ten thousand, and the One altogether
lovely!'" again I whispered.
"Ah, now you begin to meet the conditions of the new life! Like many
another, the changing of faith to sight with you has engendered a little
shrinking, a little fear. That is all wrong. Have you forgotten the
promise, 'I go to prepare a place for you; that where I am, there ye may
be also'? If you loved me when you could not see me except by faith,
love me more now when we have really become 'co-heirs of the Father.'
Come to me with all that perplexes or gladdens; come to the Elder
Brother always waiting to receive you with joy."
Then he drew me to a seat, and conversed with me long and earnestly,
unfolding many of the mysteries of the divine life. I bung upon his
words; I drank in every tone of his voice; I watched eagerly every line
of the beloved face; and I was exalted, uplifted, upborne, beyond the
power of words to express. At length with a divine smile, he arose.
"We will often meet," he said; and I, bending over, pressed my lips
reverently to the hand still clasping my own. Then laying his hands a
moment in blessing upon my bowed head, he passed noiselessly and swiftly
from the house.
As I stood watching the Savior's fast-receding figure, passing beneath
the flower-laden trees, I saw two beautiful young girls approaching the
way he went. With arms intertwining they came, happily conversing
together, sweet Mary Bates and Mae Camden. When they saw the Master,
with a glad cry they flew to meet him, and as he joyously extended a
hand to each, they turned, and each clinging to his hand, one upon
either side, accompanied him on his way, looking up trustingly into his
face as he talked with them, and apparently conversing with him with
happy freedom. I saw his face from time to time in profile, as he turned
and looked down lovingly, first upon one, then the other lovely upturned
face, and I thought, "That is the way he would have us be with
him—really as children with a beloved elder brother."
I watched them
till the trees hid them from my sight, longing to gather the dear girls
to my heart, but knowing his presence was to them then more than aught
else; then I turned and passed softly through the house to the beautiful
entrance at the rear. Just before I reached the door I met my friend
Mrs. Wickham. Before I could speak, she said,
"I know all about it. Do not try to speak; I know your heart is full. I
will see you very soon—there, go!" and she pushed me gently to the door.
How my heart blessed her—for indeed seemed sacrilege to try to talk on
ordinary topics after this blessed experience. I did not follow the
walk, but kept across the flowery turf, beneath the trees, till I
reached home. I found my brother sitting upon the veranda, and as I
ascended the steps he rose to meet me. When he looked into my face, he
took both hands into his for an instant, and simply said, very gently,
"Ah, I see. You have been with the Master!" and stepped aside almost
reverently for me to enter the house.
I hastened to my room, and, dropping the draperies behind me at the
door, I threw myself upon the couch, and with closed eyes lived over
every instant I had spent in that hallowed Presence. I recalled every
Word and tone of the Savior's voice, and fastened the instructions he
had given me indelibly upon my memory. I seemed to have been lifted to a
higher plane of existence, to have drunk deeper draughts from the
fountain of all good, since I had met "Him whom my soul loved." It was a
long, blessed communion that I held thus with my own soul on that
hallowed day. When I looked upon the pictured face above me, I wondered
that I had not at once recognized the Christ, the likeness was so
perfect. But I concluded that for some wise purpose my "eyes were holden"
until it was his pleasure that I should see him as he is.
When at last I arose, the soft golden twilight was about me, and I knelt
by my couch, to offer my first prayer in heaven. Up to this time my life
there had been a constant thanksgiving—there had seemed no room for
petition. Now as I knelt all I could utter over and over, was,
"I thank Thee, blessed Father; I thank Thee, I thank Thee!"
When I at last descended the stairs, I found my brother standing in the
great "flower-room," and, going to him, I said softly, "Frank, what do you do in heaven when you want to pray?"
"We praise!" he answered.
"Then let us praise now," I said.
And standing there, with clasped hands, we lifted up our hearts and
voices in a hymn of praise to God; my brother with his clear, strong
voice leading, I following. As the first notes sounded, I thought the
roof echoed them; but I soon found that other voices blended with ours,
until the whole house seemed filled with unseen singers. Such a grand
hymn of praise earth never heard. And as the hymn went on, I recognized
many dear voices from the past—Will Griggs' pathetic tenor, Mary Allis'
exquisite soprano, and many another voice that wakened memories of the
long ago. Then as I heard sweet child-voices, and looked up, I saw above
us such a cloud of radiant baby faces as flooded my heart with joy. The
room seemed filled with them.
"Oh, what a life—what a divine life!" I whispered, as, after standing
until the last lingering notes had died away, my brother and I returned
to the veranda and sat in the golden twilight.
"You are only in the first pages of its record," he said.
Its blessedness must be gradually unfolded to us, or we could not, even
here, bear its dazzling glory."
Then followed an hour of hallowed intercourse, when he led my soul still
deeper into the mysteries of the glorious life upon which I had now
entered. He taught me; I listened. Sometimes I questioned, but rarely. I
was content to take of the heavenly manna as it was given me, with a
heart full of gratitude and love.
THE next day, my brother being away upon an important mission, I started
out alone to see if I might not find the dear young friends of whom I
had caught a fleeting glimpse the day before. I knew that all things
were ordered aright in that happy world, and that sooner or later I
should find them again; yet I could but hope it might be very soon. I
recalled the happy light upon their fresh young faces as they had met
the beloved Master, and I longed to talk with them of their life from
day to day. From thinking of them, I began again to think of my blessed
interview with Him, and became so absorbed in these thoughts that I was
even oblivious to the beautiful world around me.
Suddenly I heard some one say,
"Surely that is Mrs. Sprague!" and looking up, I saw sweet Mary Bates a
few steps away, regarding me intently.
I cried joyfully,
"My precious Mamie!"
She flew to me, and folding me in her arms, drew my head to her shoulder
in the old caressing way, almost sobbing in her great joy.
"Dear, dear little muzzer!"—a pet name often used by her in the happy
past—"how glad, how glad I am to have you here! I could scarcely wait
to find you."
"How did you know I was here, Mamie?"
"The Master told me," she said softly. "Mae had already told me, and we
were on the way to find you when we met him, and he told us he had just
left you. Then we knew we must wait a little," she said reverently.
How my heart thrilled! He had thought about, had spoken
of me, after we parted! I longed to ask her what he had said, but dared
not.
Seeming to divine my thoughts, she continued,
"He spoke so tenderly about you, and said we must be with you much. Mae
had work to do to-day, and as she had already seen you once, I came
alone. She may be here later on. May I stay a long time with you? There
is so much to tell you, so much to ask about!"
"Indeed you may. I had started out to find you, when we met. Come, dear
child, let us return home at once."
So, clinging to each other, we set out toward my home.
"What shall I tell you first?" I asked.
"Everything about the dear ones—every individual member of our beloved
household. Begin with my precious, heartbroken mother;" here her voice
broke a little, but she
soon continued, "I am with her often, but her great, and I fear
unreconciled, sorrow, keeps me from being the comfort to her I long to
be. If only she could spend one hour with me here, could know God's
wisdom and love as we know it, how the cloud would lift from her life!
How she would see that the two lives, after all, are but one."
"Yes, dear," I answered, "I always urged her to think of it in that
light and to trust implicitly in the Father's tender care and
never-failing love; but it is difficult for us to see beyond the lonely
hearthstone and the vacant chair. Still, I believe she does begin to
dimly grasp the comfort you are so eager to impart."
"Ah, if only she knew that I need just that to complete my happiness
now! We cannot sorrow here as we did on earth, because we have learned
to know that the Will of the Father is always tender and wise; but even
heaven can never be complete for me while I know that my precious mother
is forgetful of her many rare blessings, simply because I may not be
with her, in the flesh, to share them. There is my father, and the
boys—why, I am as truly hers still as they are! I often sit with them
all, with her hand in mine, or my arms about her—my dear little mother!
Why must she see me, to recognize this? But this is almost complaining,
is it not? Some day she will know all—we must be patient."
As we walked on slowly, conversing of the earth-life, still in many
phases so dear to us, she asking eager questions, I
answering as best I could, we saw a group of four persons, three women
and a man, standing under the trees a little to one side of the walk.
The man's back was towards us, but we at once recognized the Master. The
women were all strangers, and one of them seemed to have just arrived.
Her hand the Savior held, as he talked with her, while all were intently
listening to his words. We regarded the group in silence as we slowly
passed, not hoping for recognition from him at such a time, but just as
we were opposite to them, "he turned and looked upon" us. He did not
speak—but oh, that look! So full of tenderness and encouragement and
benediction! It lifted us, it bore us upward, it enthralled and exalted
us; and as we passed onward, the clasp of our hands tightened, and
rapture unspeakable flooded our hearts.
We finished our walk in silence, and sat down on the marble steps in the
shadow of the overhanging trees. The dear child nestled close against my
side, and laid her head upon my shoulder, while I rested my cheek
caressingly upon it. After a time I whispered, half to myself, "Was
there ever such a look!"
Instantly she raised her head and looking at me, said eagerly: "You
think so, too? I was sure you would. It is always just so. If he is too
much engaged to speak to you at the time, he just looks at you, and it
is as though he had talked a long while with you. Is he not wonderful!
Why, why could we not know him on earth as we know him here?"
"How long were you here before you met him?" I asked.
"Oh, that is the wonderful part of it! His was the first
face I looked upon after I left the body. I felt bewildered when I first
realized that I was free, and I stood for a moment irresolute. Then I
saw him standing just beside me, with that same look upon his face. At
first I felt timid and half afraid. Then he stretched forth his hand to
me, and said gently, 'My child, I have come to take care of you; trust
me; do not be afraid.' Then I knew him, and instantly all fear left me,
and I clung to him as I would have done to either of my brothers. He did
not say much to me, but somehow I felt that be understood all of my
thoughts. After a moment, I asked,
"'May I not remain awhile with mamma? She is heart-broken.'
"'Yes, dear child, as long as you desire,' he answered compassionately.
"'Will you also remain?' I asked, for I already felt I could not bear to
have him leave me.
"He looked much pleased, as though he divined my thought, as he
answered, 'Yes, I will never leave you, till you are ready to, accompany
me.'
"Then I went to mamma and put my arms about her, and presently the
Master, too, came and whispered words of comfort to her; but I am not
sure she recognized our presence, though I fancied that she grew more
calm beneath my caresses. We stayed till all was over. I never left
mamma an instant, except that twice I stole to poor little Hal's sick
room when he was for a short time alone. I have always felt that he
recognized my presence more than any of them, he lay so still and calm
when I talked to him. He seemed to be listening. When they gathered for
the last time about my casket, it seemed to me I must speak, I must show
myself to them! Could they for one instant have seen my living self,
standing so calmly in their midst, they would have turned forever from
the lifeless clay they had embalmed and beautified for the tomb. They
would have known I was not there. But they would not recognize the
truth. At last I pleaded with the Master to let me show myself once to
them, there. But he said, 'It is not the Father's will.'
"After that I accepted fully the Father's will, and soon thereafter he
brought me here in his arms. And what a blessed life it is!"
I can give only a brief outline of our conversation on that first happy
day. It is too sacred to be scanned by curious eyes. We talked until the
golden twilight fell, and we watched the little birds nestling in the
vines, and heard afar the solemnly joyous notes of the angels' choral
song, and joined our voices in the hymn of praise. Later we went to my
room, and lay down upon my dainty couch for rest, and the last words I
heard before sinking into heaven's blissful sleep were, tenderly
whispered: "Dear, dear little muzzer, I am so glad and happy that you
are here!"
More than once the question has been asked, "Was there night there?"
Emphatically, no! What, for want of a better designation, we may call
"day," was full of a glorious radiance, a roseate golden light, which
was everywhere. There is no language known to mortals that can describe
this marvelous glory. It flooded the sky; it was caught up and reflected
in the waters; it filled all heaven With joy and all hearts with song.
After a period much longer than our longest earthly day, this glory
mellowed and softened until it became a glowing twilight full of peace.
The children ceased their playing beneath the trees, the little birds
nestled among the vines, and all who had been busy in various ways
throughout the day sought Test and quiet. But there was no darkness, no
dusky shadows even—only a restful softening of the glory.
NOT long after this, my brother said, "We will go to the grand auditorium
this morning; it will be a rare day even here. Martin Luther is to talk
on 'The Reformation; Its Causes and Effects,' and this will be
supplemented by a talk from John Wesley. There may also be other
speakers."
It was not the first time we had visited this great auditorium, although
I have not hitherto described it. It stood upon a slight eminence, and
the mighty dome was supported by massive columns of alternate amethyst
and jasper. There were no walls to the vast edifice; only the great dome
and supporting columns. A broad platform of precious marbles, inlaid in
porphyry, arose from the center, from which the seats ascended on three
sides, forming an immense amphitheater. The seats were of cedar wood
highly polished; and back of the platform were heavy hangings of royal
purple. An altar of solid pearl stood near the center of the platform.
The great dome was deep and dark in its immensity, so that only the
golden statues around its lower border were distinctly visible. All this
I had noted at former visits.
When we entered, we found the building filled with people eagerly
waiting for what was to follow. We soon were seated and also waiting.
Soft strains of melody floated about us, from an invisible choir, and
before long Martin Luther, in the prime of a vigorous manhood, ascended
the steps and stood before us. It is not my purpose to dwell upon his
appearance, so familiar to us all, except to say that his great
intellect and spiritual strength seemed to have added to his already
powerful physique, and made him a fit leader still, even in heavenly
places.
His discourse would of itself fill a volume, and could not be given even
in outline, in this brief sketch. He held us enthralled by the power of
his will and his eloquence. When he at length retired, John Wesley took
his place, and the saintly beauty of his face, intensified by the
heavenly light upon it, was wonderful. His theme was "God's love;" and
if in the earth-life he dwelt upon it with power, he now swept our souls
with the fire of his exaltation, until we were as wax in his hands. He
showed what that love had done for us, and how an eternity of
thanksgiving and praise could never repay it.
Silence, save for the faint, sweet melody of the unseen choir, rested
upon the vast audience for some time after he left. All seemed lost in
contemplation of the theme so
tenderly dwelt upon. Then the heavy curtains back of the platform
parted, and a tall form, about whom all the glory of heaven seemed to
center, emerged from their folds and advanced toward the middle of the
platform. Instantly the vast concourse of souls arose to their feet, and
burst forth as with one voice into that grand anthem in which we had so
often joined on earth:
"All hail the power of Jesus' name,
Let angels prostrate fall;
Bring forth the royal diadem,
And crown him Lord of all."
Such a grand chorus of voices, such unity, such harmony, such volume,
was never heard on earth. It rose, it swelled, it seemed to fill not
only the great auditorium, but heaven itself. And still, above it all,
we heard the voices of the angel choir, no longer breathing the soft,
sweet melody, but bursting forth into paeans of triumphant praise. A
flood of glory seemed to fill the place, and looking upward we beheld
the great dome ablaze with golden light, and the angelic forms of the no
longer invisible choir in its midst, with their heavenly harps and
viols, and their faces only less radiant than that of Him in whose
praise they sang. And he, before whom all heaven bowed in adoration,
stood with uplifted face and kingly mien, the very God of earth and
heaven. He was the center of all light, and a divine radiance surrounded
him that was beyond compare.
As the hymn of praise and adoration ceased, all sank slowly to their
knees, and every head was bowed and every face covered as the angel
choir chanted again the familiar words,
"Glory be to the Father, and to the Son, and to the Holy Ghost. As it
was in the beginning, is now, and ever shall be, world without end.
Amen, Amen!"
Slowly the voices died away, and a holy silence fell upon us. Presently,
slowly and reverently, all arose and resumed their places. No, not all.
Sweet Mary Bates had accompanied us to the sanctuary, and I now noticed
that she alone still knelt in our midst, with clasped hands and radiant
uplifted face, her lovely eyes fixed upon the Savior, as he still stood
waiting before us, with such a look of self-forgetful adoration and love
as made her herself truly divine. She was so rapt I dared not disturb
her; but in a moment the Master turned and met her adoring eyes with
such a look of loving recognition, that with a deep sigh of satisfied
desire, as he turned again, she quietly resumed her seat beside me,
slipping her little hand into mine with all the confidence of a child
who feels sure it is understood to the utmost.
As I looked upon the glorious form before us, clothed in all the majesty
of the Godhead, my heart tremblingly asked: "Can this indeed be the
Christ-man whom Pilate condemned to die an ignominious death upon the
cross?" I could not accept it. It seemed impossible that any man,
however vile, could be blind to the divinity so plainly revealed in him.
Then the Savior began to speak, and the sweetness of his voice was far
beyond the melody of the heavenly choir. And
his gracious words! Would that I could, would that I dared, transcribe
them as they fell from his lips. Earth has no language by which I could
convey their lofty meaning. He first touched lightly upon the
earth-life, and showed so wonderfully the link of light uniting the two
lives—the past with the present. Then he unfolded to us some of the
earlier mysteries of the blessed life, and pointed out the joyous duties
just before us.
When he ceased, we sat with bowed heads as he withdrew. Our hearts were
so enfolded, our souls so uplifted, our spirits so exalted, our whole
being so permeated with his divinity, that when we arose we left the
place silently and reverently, each bearing away a heart filled with
higher, more divine aspirations, and clearer views of the blessed life
upon which we were permitted to enter.
I can touch but lightly upon these heavenly joys. There is a depth, a
mystery to all that pertains to the divine life, which I dare not try to
describe; I could not if I would, I would not if I could. A sacredness
enfolds it all that curious eyes should not look upon. Suffice it to
say, that no joy we know on earth, however rare, however sacred, can be
more than the faintest shadow of the joy we there find; no dreams of
rapture, here unrealized, approach the bliss of one moment, even, in
that divine world. No sorrow; no pain; no sickness; no death; no
partings; no disappointments; no tears but those of joy; no broken
hopes; no mislaid plans; no night, nor storm, nor shadows even; but
light and joy and
love and peace and rest forever and forever. "Amen," and again my heart
says revently, "Amen."
11. Rebecca Meets Her Sister
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AS the days passed I found my desires often led me to the sacred lake,
sometimes alone, sometimes with one or more of my own family circle—my
revered father and precious mother, my dear brother and sister, and many
beloved friends both within and without the bond of consanguinity. It
was always to me an inspiration and an uplifting. I never could grow
sufficiently familiar with it to overcome the first great awe with which
it inspired me; but I found that the oftener I bathed or floated and
slept in its pellucid current, the stronger I grew in spirit, and the
more clearly I comprehended the mysteries of the world about me.
My almost daily intercourse with the dear ones of our home life from
whom I had so long been separated, served to restore to me the home
feeling that had been the greatest solace of my mortal life, and I began
to realize that this was indeed the true life, instead of that
probationary life which we had always regarded as such. I think it was
the day after my return from my first visit to earth, that, as
I had started to cross the field lying between my father's house and our
own, I heard my name called in affectionate tones. I turned and saw
approaching me a tall, fine-looking man, whose uncovered head was
silvery white, and whose deep blue eyes looked happily and tenderly into
mine, as he drew near.
"Oliver!" I cried with outstretched hands of welcome,
"dear, dear
Oliver!" It was the husband of my eldest sister, always dearly loved.
"I did not know that you had come, until a few moments since, when our
father told me. It is delightful to have you here; it seems more like
the old life to see you than any of the others who are here we were
together so much during the last years of my stay," he said, grasping my
hands warmly. "Where are you going now? Can you not come with me awhile?
I was thinking only a few days ago how much I wished you could be here a
little while before Lu came; you know her tastes so well. And now here
you are! So often our unspoken wishes are thus gratified in heaven!"
"Is my sister coming soon?" I asked a little later.
"That I cannot confidently say; but you know the years of the earth-life
are passing, and her coming cannot be much longer delayed. Can you come
with me now?"
"Gladly," I said, turning to walk with him.
"It is only a little way from here," he said. "Just where the river
bends. Lu loves the water so, I chose that spot in preference to one
even nearer your home."
"This is truly enchanting!" I cried, as we drew near the place. "I have
not been this way before."
"I want you to see the river from her room windows," he said; "I know
you will enjoy it."
We entered the truly beautiful house, built of the purest white granite,
so embedded in the foliage of the flower-laden trees that from some
points only glimpses of its fine proportions could be seen.
"She loves flowers so much—will she not enjoy these trees?" he asked
with almost boyish delight.
"Beyond everything," I answered.
We passed through several delightful rooms on the lower floor, and,
ascending the stairway, which in itself was a dream of beauty, entered
the room he was so anxious I should see. I stopped upon the threshold
with an exclamation of delight, while he stood watching with keen
enjoyment the expression on my face.
"It is the most delightful room I ever saw!" I cried enthusiastically.
The framework of couches, chairs and desk was of pure and spotless
pearl, upholstered in dim gold; soft rugs and draperies everywhere; and
through the low window, opening upon the flower-wreathed balcony, so
enchanting a view of the broad, smooth river below, that again I caught
my breath in delight. A thousand exquisite tints from the heavens above
were reflected upon the tranquil waters, and a boat floating on the
current was perfectly mirrored in the opaline-tinted ripples. Far across the shining waters the celestial hills arose,
with domes and pillared temples and sparkling fountains perceptible
everywhere. When at last I turned from this entrancing view, I saw on
the opposite wall, smiting down upon me, the same Divine face that I
daily looked upon in my own room at home.
We descended the stairs without a word, then I could only falter,
"Only heaven could give such perfection in everything!"
Oliver pressed my hand sympathetically, and let me depart without a
word.
Many months, by earthly time, had passed since that day, and many times
I had visited that lovely home and held sweet converse with one I loved
so well. I could suggest nothing that would add to the beauty of the
place, but we talked of it together, and planned for and anticipated the
joy of her coming.
One day I found him absent, and though I waited long for his return, he
came not. I had not seen him for several days, and concluded he had been
sent upon some mission by the Master.
As I passed onward to our home, I met a group of happy
young girls and boys, of different ages, hastening the way I had come,
with their arms full of most beautiful flowers. As they drew near I saw
they Were the grandchildren of my dear sister—Stanley and Mary and David
and Lee and little Ruth. As soon as they saw me, they all with one
accord began to shout joyfully, "Grandma is coming! Grandma is coming! We are taking flowers to scatter
everywhere! We are so glad!"
"How do you know she is coming, children? I have just been to the
house—no one is there!"
"But she is coming," said little Lee. "We had a message from grandpa,
and he is to bring her."
"Then I will tell the others, and we will all come to welcome her," I
said.
With a great joy in my heart I hastened onward to my father's house. I
found them awaiting me, full of joyful expectation.
"Yes, we also have had word," my father said, "and were only awaiting
your return, that we might go together."
"Then I will go for brother Frank, that he also may accompany us," I
said.
"He is here!" said a genial voice; and, looking up, I saw him at the
door.
"Col. Sprague is always present when he is needed," said my father
cordially.
So we set forth, a goodly company, to welcome this dearly loved one to
her home my father, my mother, and my sister Jodie; my brother the
doctor, and his two fair daughters; my Aunt Gray, her son Martin, and
his wife and daughter; my brother Frank and I.
As we approached the house we heard the sound of joyous voices, and
looking in, we saw my sister standing in the room, her husband's arm
about her, and the happy grandchildren
thronged around them, like humming-birds among the flowers. But what was
this? Could this radiant creature, with smooth brow and happy eyes, be
the pale, wan woman I had last seen, so bowed with suffering and sorrow?
I looked with eager eyes. Yes, it was my sister; but as she was full
thirty years ago, with the bloom of health upon her face, and the light
of youth in her tender eyes. I drew back into the shadow of the vines
and let the others precede me, for my heart was full of a strange,
triumphant joy. This truly was the "victory over death" so surely
promised by our risen Lord. I watched the happy greetings, and the way
she took each beloved one into her tender arms.
When, one by one, she
had greeted and embraced them all, I saw her, with a strange yearning at
my heart, turn and look wistfully around, then whisper to my father,
"Is not my little sister here?"
I could wait no longer, but, hastening to her side,
cried,
"Dearest, I am here! Welcome! Welcome!"
She folded me to her heart and held me fast in her warm arms, she
showered me with kisses upon my upturned face, while I returned each
loving caress, and laughed and cried for very gladness that she had come
at last. Oh, what a family reunion was that inside the walls of heaven!
And how its bliss was heightened by the sure knowledge (not the hope)
that there should be no partings for us henceforth forever!
My brother Oliver looked on with proud and happy eyes.
The hour for which he had longed and waited had come to him at last; his
home-life would now be complete for evermore. I told him how I waited
for him that day, and he said, "We saw you as you left the house, but
were too distant to call you. I taken her into the river, and she looked
at and admired the house very greatly before she knew it was our home."
"What did she do when she saw her lovely room?"
"Cried like a child, and clung to me, and said, 'This more than repays
us for the lost home of earth!' If the children not come, I think she
would have been at that window still!" he said, laughing happily.
"I am glad you had her all to yourself at the first," I whispered; "you
deserved that happiness, dear, if any man ever did."
He smiled gratefully, and looked over at his wife, where she stood the
center of a happy group.
"Does she not took very young to you, Oliver?" I asked.
"The years rolled from her like a mask, as we sat beneath the water in
the river. Ah, truly in those life-giving waters we do all 'renew our
youth'; but she became at once uncommonly fair and young."
"Her coming has brought youth likewise to you," I said, noting his fresh
complexion and his sparkling eyes; "but I hope it will not change your
silver hair, for that is to you a crown of glory."
He looked at me a moment critically, then said,
"I wonder if you realize the change that has likewise come to you in
this wonderful clime?"
"I?" I said, a little startled at the thought; "I confess I have not
once thought of my personal appearance. I realize what, through the
Father's mercy, this life has done for me spiritually, but as for the
other, I have never given it an instant's thought."
"The change is fully as great in your case as in Lu's, though with you
the change has been more gradual," he said.
I felt a strange thrill of joy that when my dear husband should come to
me, he would find me with the freshness and comeliness of our earlier
years. It was a sweet thought, and my heart was full of gratitude to the
Father for this further evidence of his loving care.
So we talked
together as the hours sped, until my father said,
"Come, children; we must not forget that this dear daughter of mine
needs rest this first day in her new home. Let us leave her and her
happy husband to their new-found bliss."
So with light hearts we went our way, and left them to spend their first
hours in heaven together
12. A
Visit With a Special Friend
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AFTER we had left my parents and friends on our return from
our welcome to my sister, my brother hastened away upon some
mission, and I walked on alone toward the sacred lake. I felt the
need of a rest in its soothing waters after the exciting scenes
through which I had passed.
I had hitherto visited the lake in the early morning
hours; it was now something past noontide of the heavenly day, and
but few persons lingered on the shore. The boats that sped across
its calm surface seemed to be filled rather with those intent upon
some duty than simply pleasure-seekers. I walked slowly down into
the water, and soon found myself floating, as at former times, in
midcurrent.
The wonderful prismatic rays that in the early
morning were such a marvel, now blended into a golden glory, with
different shades of rose and purple flashing their splendor. To me
it seemed even more beautiful than the rainbow tints; just as the
maturer joys of our earthly life cast into shadow, somewhat, the
more evanescent pleasures of youth. I could but wonder what its
evening glories would be, and resolved to come at some glowing
twilight, and see if they would not remind me of the calm hours of
life's closing day.
I heard the chimes from the silver bell of the great
city ringing an anthem as I lay, and its notes seemed to chant
clearly, "Holy! Holy! Holy! Lord God Almighty!" The waters took up
the song and a thousand waves about me responded, "Holy! Holy!
Holy!"
The notes seemed to "vibrate," if I may use the
expression, upon the waves, producing a wondrously harmonious
effect. The front row in the battalion of advancing waves softly
chanted "Holy" as they passed onward; immediately the second roll of
waves took up the word that the first seemed to have dropped as it
echoed the second "Holy" in the divine chorus, then it, too, passed
onward to take up the second note as the third advancing column
caught the first; and so it passed and echoed from wave to wave,
until it seemed millions of tiny waves about me had taken up and
were bearing their part in this grand crescendo—this wonderful
anthem. Language fails me—I cannot hope to convey to others this
experience as it came to me. It was grand, wonderful, overpowering.
I lay and listened until my whole being was filled with the divine
melody, and I seemed to be a part of the great chorus, then I, too,
lifted up my voice and joined with full heart in the thrilling song
of praise.
I found that, contrary to my usual custom, I floated
rapidly away from the shore whence I had entered the water, and
after a time was conscious that I was approaching a portion of the
lake shore I never yet visited. Refreshed and invigorated, I
ascended the sloping banks, to find myself in the midst of a lovely
suburban village, similar to the one where our own home was
situated. There was some difference in the architecture or
construction of the houses, though they were no less beautiful than
others I had seen. Many were constructed of polished woods, and
somewhat resembled the finest of the chalets one sees in
Switzerland, though far surpassing them in all that gives pleasure
to the artistic eye.
As I wandered on, feasting my eyes upon the lovely
views about me, I was particularly pleased by the appearance of an
unusually attractive house. Its broad verandas almost overhung the
waters of the lake, the wide low steps running on one side of the
house quite to the water's edge. Several graceful swans were
leisurely drifting about with the current, and a bird similar to our
Southern mocking-bird, but with softer voice, was singing and
swinging in the low branches overhead. There were many larger and
more imposing villas near, but none possessed for me the charm of
this sweet home.
Beneath one of the large flowering trees close by
this cottage home, I saw a woman sitting, weaving with her delicate
hands, apparently without shuttle or needle, a snow-white
gossamer-like fabric that fell in a soft fleecy heap at her side as
the work progressed. She was so very small in stature that at first
glance I supposed she was a child; but a closer scrutiny showed her
to be a mature woman, though with the glow of youth still upon her
smooth cheek.
Something familiar in her gestures, rather than her
appearance, caused me to feel that it was not the first time we had
met; and growing accustomed now to the delightful surprises that met
me everywhere in this world of rare delights, I drew near to accost
her, when, before I could speak, she looked up, and the doubt was
gone.
"Maggie!" "Mrs. Sprague dear!" we cried
simultaneously, as, dropping her work from her hands, she stepped
quickly up to greet me.
Our greeting was warm and fervent, and her sweet
face glowed with a welcome that reminded me of the happy days when
we had met, in the years long gone, by the shore of that other
beautiful lake in the world of our earth-life.
"Now I know why I came this way to-day—to find you,
dear," I said, as we sat side by side, talking as we never talked on
earth; for the sweet shyness of her mortal life had melted away in
the balmy air of heaven.
"What is this lovely fabric you are weaving?" I
presently asked, lifting the silken fleecy web in my fingers as I
spoke.
"Some draperies for Nellie's room," she said. "You
know we two have lived alone together so much, I thought it would
seem more like home to her, to us both, if we did the same here. So
this cottage is our own special home, just a step from Marie's,"
pointing to an imposing house a few yards distant, "and I am fitting
it up as daintily as I can, especially her room."
"Oh, let me help you, Maggie dear!" I said. "It
would be such a pleasure to me."
She hesitated an instant, with something of the
old-time shyness, then said, "That is so like you, dear Mrs.
Sprague. I have set my heart on doing Nellie's room entirely
myself—there is no hurry about it, you know—but if you really would
enjoy it, I shall love to have you help me in the other rooms."
"And will you teach me how to weave these delicate
hangings?"
"Yes, indeed. Shall I give you your first lesson
now?"
Lifting the dainty thread, she showed me how to toss
and wind it through my fingers till it fell away in shining folds.
It was very light and fascinating work, and I soon was weaving it
almost as rapidly as she did.
"Now I can help Carroll!" was my happy thought, as I
saw the shimmering fabric grow beneath my hands. "Tomorrow I will go
and show him how beautifully we can drape the doors and windows."
So in heaven our first thought ever is to give
pleasure to others.
"You are an apt scholar," said Maggie, laughing
happily; and what a charming hour you have given me!"
"What a charming hour you have given me, my dear!" I
answered.
When we parted it was with the understanding that
every little while I was to repeat the visit. When I urged her
likewise to come to me, the old-time shyness again appeared, as she
said, "Oh, they are all strangers to me, and here we shall be
entirely alone. You come to me."
So I yielded, as in heaven we never seek to gain
reluctant consent for any pleasure, however dear; and many were the
happy hours spent with her in the cottage by the lake.
13.
A Visit to the Heavenly City
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ON one of my walks about this time, I chanced upon a scene
that brought to mind what Mae had said to me about the Savior's love
for little children. I found him sitting beneath one of the
flowering trees upon the lake shore, with about a dozen children of
all ages clustered around him. One dainty little tot, not more than
a year old, was nestled in his arms, with her sunny head resting
confidingly upon his bosom, her tiny hands filled with the lovely
water-lilies that floated everywhere on the waters. She was too
young to realize how great her privilege was, but seemed to be
enjoying his care to the utmost. The others sat at his feet, or
leaned upon his knees; and one dear little fellow, with earnest
eyes, stood by him, leaning upon his shoulder, while the Master's
right arm encircled him. Every eye was fixed eagerly upon Jesus, and
each child appeared alert to catch every word he said. He seemed to
be telling them some very absorbing story, adapted to their childish
tastes and capacities. I sat down upon the sward among a group of
people, a little removed from the children, and tried to hear what
he was saying, but we were too far away to catch more than a
sentence now and then, and in heaven one never intrudes upon
another's privileges or pleasures. So we simply enjoyed the smiles
and eager questions and exclamations of the children, and gathered a
little of the tenor of the story from the disjointed sentences which
floated to us.
"A little child lost in the dark woods of the lower
world—" we heard the Master say, in response to the inquiring looks
of the interested children. Lions and bears—" came later on. Where
was his papa?" asked an anxious voice.
We could not hear the reply, but soon a little
fellow leaning upon the Savior's knee, said confidently: "No lions
and bears up here!"
"No," he replied, "nothing to harm or frighten my
little children here!"
Then as the story deepened and grew in interest, and
the children pressed more closely about the Master, he turned with a
sweet smile and we could see an increased pressure of the encircling
arm—to the little fellow with the earnest eyes who leaned upon his
shoulder, and said, "What, Leslie, would you have done, then?"
With a bright light in his eyes and a flush on his
fair cheek, the child answered quickly and emphatically, "I should
have prayed to Thee and asked Thee to 'close the lion's mouth,' as
Thou didst for Daniel, and Thou wouldst have done it!"
"Ah," I thought, "could C—— and H—— see the look the
beloved Master cast upon their boy as he made his brave reply, they
would be comforted even for the absence of their darling."
Lost in these thoughts, I heard no more that passed,
until an ecstatic shout from the little folks proclaimed how
satisfactorily the story had ended, and, looking up, I saw the
Savior passing onward, with the baby still in his arms, and the
children trooping about him.
"Of such is the kingdom of heaven." How well he
understood! How much he loved them!
I, too, arose and started homeward. I had not gone
far before I met my brother Frank, who greeted me with, "I am on my
way to the city by the lake; will you accompany me?"
"It has been long my wish to visit the city. I only
waited until you thought it wise for me to go," I answered.
"You are growing so fast in the knowledge of the
heavenly ways," he said, "that I think I might venture to take you
almost anywhere with me now. You acquire the knowledge for the very
love of it; not because you feel it your duty to know what we would
have you learn. Your eagerness to gather to yourself all truth, and
at the same time your patient submission in waiting, ofttimes when I
know the trial is great, have won for you much praise and love from
our dear Master, who watches eagerly the progress of us all in the
divine life. I think it only right that you should know of this; we
need encouragement here as well as in the earth-life, though in a
different way. I tell you this by divine permission. I think it will
not be long before He trusts you with a mission; but this I say of
myself, not by his command."
It would be impossible for me to convey, in the
language of earth, the impression these words of commendation left
upon me. They were so unexpected, so unforeseen. I had gone on, as
my brother said, eagerly gathering the knowledge imparted to me,
with a genuine love for the study of all things pertaining to the
blessed life, without a thought that I in any way deserved
commendation for so doing; and now I had won the approbation of the
Master himself! The happiness seemed almost more than I had strength
to bear.
"My brother, my dear brother!" was all I could say,
in my deep joy, stopping suddenly and looking up into his face with
grateful tears.
"I am so glad for you, little sister!" he said,
warmly clasping my hand. "There are, you see, rewards in heaven; it
does my soul good that you have unconsciously won one of these so
soon."
I would I might record in detail the precious words
of wisdom that fell from his lips; I would that I might recount
minutely the events of that wonderful life as it was unfolded to me
day by day; but I can only say, "I may not." When I undertook to
make a record of that never-to-be-forgotten time, I did not realize
how many serious difficulties I would have to encounter; how often I
would have to pause and consider if I might really reveal this truth
or paint that scene as it appeared to me. The very heart has often
been left out of some wonderful scene I was attempting to describe,
because I found I dared not reveal its sacred secret. I realize
painfully that the narrative, as I am forced to give it, falls
infinitely short of what I hoped to make it when I began. But bear
with me; it is no fancy sketch I am drawing, but the veritable life
beyond, as it appeared to me when the exalted spirit rose triumphant
over the impoverished flesh, made slavishly subservient through
suffering.
My brother and I walked slowly back to the margin of
the lake, where we stepped into a boat lying near the shore, and
were at once transported to the farther shore of the lake, and
landed upon a marble terrace the entrance to the city by the take. I
never knew by what power these boats were propelled. There were no
oarsmen, no engine, no sails, upon the one in which we crossed the
water; but it moved steadily onward till we were safely landed at
our destination. Luxuriously cushioned seats were all around it, and
upon one of them lay a musical instrument, something like a violin,
although it no bow, but seemed to be played by the fingers alone.
Upon another seat lay a book. I picked it up and opened it; it
seemed to be a continuation of that book that has stirred and
thrilled millions of hearts in the mortal life—The Greatest Thing
in the World. As I glanced through it while we journeyed, I
grasped the truth that this great mind already had grappled with the
mighty things of eternity and given food to immortals, even as he
had to those in mortal life in the years gone by.
I was roused from my thoughts by the boat touching
the marble terrace, and found my brother already standing waiting to
assist me to the shore. Passing up a slight acclivity, we found
ourselves in a broad street that led into the heart of the city. The
streets I found were all very broad and smooth, and paved with
marble and precious stones of every kind. Though they were thronged
with people intent on various duties, not an atom of debris, or even
dust, was visible anywhere. There seemed to be vast business houses
of many kinds, though I saw nothing resembling our large mercantile
establishments. There were many colleges and schools; many book and
music-stores and publishing houses; several large manufactories,
where, I learned, were spun the fine silken threads of manifold
colors which were so extensively used in the weaving of the
draperies I have already mentioned. There were art rooms, picture
galleries and libraries, and many lecture halls and vast
auditoriums.
But I saw no churches of any kind. At first this
somewhat confused me, until I remembered that there are no creeds in
heaven, but that all worship together in harmony and love—the
children of one and the same loving Father. "Ah," I thought, "what a
pity that that fact, if no other in the great economy of heaven,
could not be proclaimed to the inhabitants of earth! How it would do
away with the petty contentions, jealousies and rivalries of the
church militant! No creeds in heaven! No controverted points of
doctrine! No charges of heresy brought by one professed Christian
against another! No building up of one denomination upon the ruins
or downfall of a different sect! But one great universal brotherhood
whose head is Christ, and whose cornerstone is Love."
I thought of the day we had listened in the great
auditorium at home to the divine address of our beloved Master; of
the bowed heads and uplifted voices of that vast multitude as every
voice joined in the glorious anthem, "Crown Him Lord of All!" and I
could have wept to think of the faces that must some day be bowed in
shame when they remember how often they have in mortal life said to
a brother Christian, "Stand aside; I am holier than thou!"
We found no dwelling-houses anywhere in the midst of
the city, until we came to the suburbs. Here they stood in great
magnificence and splendor. But one pleasing fact was that every home
its large door-yard, full of trees and flowers and pleasant walks;
indeed, it was everywhere, outside of the business center of the
town, like one vast park dotted with lovely houses. There was much
that charmed, much that surprised me in this great city, of which I
may not fully speak, but which I never can forget. We found in one
place a very large park, with walks and drives and fountains and
miniature lakes and shaded seats, but no dwellings or buildings of
any kind, except an immense circular open temple capable of seating
many hundred; and where, my brother told me, a seraph choir
assembled at a certain hour daily and rendered the oratorios written
by the great musical composers of earth and heaven. It had just
departed, and the crowd who had enjoyed its divine music yet
lingered as though loath to leave a spot so hallowed.
"We will remember the hour," my brother said, "and
come again when we can hear them."
STILL passing through the park, we came out upon the open
country, and walked some distance through flowery meadows and
undulating plains. At length we entered a vast forest whose great
trees towered above us like swaying giants. The day was well-nigh
spent—the day so full of joy and glad surprises and happy hours!
Full as it had been I felt there was still something left for me,
deep hidden in the twilight-valley of the day; something that held
my soul in awe, as the last moments preceding the Holy Sacrament.
My brother walked by me, absorbed in silent thought,
but with a touch beyond even his usual gentleness. I did not ask
where we were going at that unusual hour, so far from home, for fear
and doubt and questionings no longer vexed the quiet of my soul.
Although the forest was dense, the golden glow of the twilight
rested beneath the trees, and sifted down through the quivering
branches overhead, as though falling through the windows of some
grand cathedral.
At length we emerged from the forest upon a vast
plain that stretched out into illimitable space before us, and far
away we faintly heard the thunder of the breaking waves of that
immortal sea of which I had heard so much but had not yet seen. But
for their faint and distant reverberation the silence about us was
intense. We stood a moment upon the verge of the forest, then as we
advanced a few steps into the plain I became aware that immediately
to our right the ground rose into quite an elevation; and, as I
turned, a sight broke upon my bewildered eyes that the eternal years
of earth and heaven can never efface. Upon the summit of this gentle
slope a Temple stood, whose vast dome, massive pillars and solid
walls were of unsullied pearl, and through whose great mullioned
windows shone a white radiance that swallowed up the golden glow of
the twilight and made it its own. I did not cry aloud nor hide my
face, as at former revelations; but I sank slowly to my knees, and,
crossing my hands upon my breast, with uplifted face, stilled heart
and silent lips, laid my whole being in worship at His feet "who
sitteth upon the throne." How long I knelt thus I know not. Even
immortal life seemed lost before that greatest of celestial
mysteries. At length my brother, who had been silently kneeling
beside me, arose, and, lifting me to my feet, whispered gently,
"Come."
I felt rather than saw that his face was colorless
with the depth of his emotion, and I yielded to his guidance in
silence. A long flight of low, broad steps, in gradations, rose from
almost where we stood to the very door of the Temple. They, too,
were of solid pearl, bordered on either side by channels paved with
golden stones through which coursed crystal waters that met and
mingled in one stream far out upon the plain. Ascending these steps,
we entered the Temple, and for a moment stood in silence. I do not
know how it was, but in that brief instant—it may have been longer
than I knew—every detail of that wonderful interior was fastened
upon my memory as a scene is photographed upon the artist's plate.
Heretofore it had taken repeated visits to a room to enable me to
describe it correctly in detail, but this, in a lightning's flash,
was stamped upon the tablet of my memory indelibly for all time—nay,
for eternity.
The immense dome, at that moment filled with a
luminous cloud, was upheld by three rows of massive pillars of gold.
The walls and floors were of pearl, as also the great platform that
filled at least one-third of the Temple upon the eastern side. There
were no seats of any kind. The great golden pillars stood like rows
of sentinels upon the shining floor. A railing of gold ran entirely
around the platform upon the three sides, so that it was
inaccessible from the body of the Temple. Beneath this railing, upon
the temple-floor, a kneeling-step passed around the platform, also
of pearl. In the center of the platform an immense altar of gold
arose, supported by seraphs of gold with outspread wings, one at
each corner; and underneath it, in a great pearl basin, a fountain
of sparkling water played, and I knew intuitively it was the source
of the magical river that flowed through the gardens of heaven and
bore from us the last stains of death and sin.
Nothing living, beside ourselves, was within the
Temple except two persons who knelt with bowed heads beside the
altar-rail upon the farther side; but by the altar stood four
angels, one upon either side, dressed in flowing garments of white,
with long, slim trumpets of gold uplifted in their hands, as though
waiting in expectancy the signal for their trumpet call. Long
draperies of silvery gossamer hung in heavy folds back of the altar
platform. Suddenly, in the moment that we looked, we saw the
draperies tremble and glow until a radiance far beyond the splendor
of the sun at midday shone through them, and the whole Temple was
"filled with the glory of the Lord." We saw, in the midst of the
luminous cloud that filled the dome, the forms of angelic harpers,
and as we dropped with bowed heads beside the altar-rail and bid our
faces from the "brightness of His coming," we heard the trumpet-call
of the four angels about the altar, and the voices of the celestial
harpers as they sang:
"Holy, Holy, Holy, Lord God Almighty!
All thy works shall praise thy name, in earth, and sky, and sea.
Holy, Holy, Holy, merciful and mighty,
God in three persons—blessed Trinity. Amen!"
The voices softly died away; the last notes of the
golden trumpets had sounded; "and there was silence in heaven." We
knew that the visible glory of the Lord was, for the present,
withdrawn from the Temple which is his throne; still we knelt with
bowed beads in silent worship before him. When at last we arose I
did not lift my eyes while within the Temple; I desired it to remain
upon my memory as it appeared when filled with his glory.
We walked some time in silence, I leaning upon my
brother's arm, for I yet trembled with emotion. I was surprised that
we did not return into the forest, but went still farther out upon
the plain. But when I saw that we approached the confluence of the
two streams which issued from the fountain beneath the altar, I
began to understand that we would return by way of the river,
instead of by forest and lake.
We reached the stream, at length, and, stepping into
a boat that lay by the shore, we were soon floating with the current
toward home. We passed through much beautiful scenery on our course
that I had not seen before, and which I resolved I would visit in
the future, when leisure from my daily duties would permit. Lovely
villas, surrounded by beautiful grounds stretching directly up from
the water's edge, lay on both sides of the river, and formed a
panorama upon which the eye never tired of Testing. Toward the end
of the journey we passed my sister's lovely home, and we could
plainly see her and her husband drinking in the scene with
enraptured eyes, from the window of her own room.
My brother and I were both silent the greater part
of the time during our journey homeward, though each noted with
observant eyes the signs of happy domestic life by which we were
surrounded on every side. The verandas and steps of the homes we
passed were full of their happy inmates; glad voices could be
constantly heard, and merry shouts of laughter came from the throngs
of little children playing everywhere upon the flowery lawns. Once I
broke our silence by saying to my brother, "I have been more than
once delightfully surprised to hear the familiar songs of earth
reproduced in heaven, but never more so than I was to-day. That hymn
has long been a favorite of mine."
"These happy surprises do not come by chance," he
answered. "One of the delights of this rare life is that no occasion
is ever overlooked for reproducing here the pure enjoyments of our
mortal life. It is the Father's pleasure to make us realize that
this existence is but a continuance of the former life, only without
its imperfections and its cares."
"Frank, I believe you are the only one of our
friends here who has never questioned me about the dear ones left
behind; why is it?"
He smiled a peculiarly happy smile as he answered:
"Perhaps it is because I already know more than you could tell me."
"I wondered if it was not so," I said, for I
remembered well how my dear father had said, in speaking of my
brother upon the first day of my coming, "He stands very near to the
Master," and I knew how often he was sent upon missions to the world
below.
I lay down upon my couch, on our return, with a heart overflowing
with joy and gratitude and love, beyond the power of expression; and
it seemed to me the tenderness in the Divine eyes that looked down
upon me from the wall was deeper, Purer, holier than it ever been
before.
"I will reach the standard of perfection you have
set for me, my Savior," I faltered, with clasped bands uplifted to
him, "if it takes all my life in heaven and all the help from all
the angels of light to accomplish it;" and with these words upon my
lips, and his tender eyes resting upon me, I sank into the blissful
repose of heaven.
15.
Meeting Special Friends
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SO much occurred, and so rapidly, from the very hour of my
entrance within the beautiful gates, that it is impossible for me to
transcribe it all. I have been able only to cull here and there
incidents that happened day by day; and in so doing many things I
would gladly have related have unconsciously been omitted. Of the
many dear friends I met, only a very few have been mentioned, for
the reason that, of necessity, such meetings are so similar in many
respects that the constant repetition, in detail, would become
wearisome. I have aimed principally to give such incidents as would
show the beautiful domestic life in that happy world; to make
apparent the reverence and love all hearts feel toward the blessed
Trinity for every good and perfect gift, and to show forth the
marvelous power of the Christ-love even in the life beyond the
grave.
This world, strange and new to me, held multitudes
of those I loved in the years gone by, and there was scarcely an
hour that did not renew for me the ties that once were severed in
the mortal life. I remember that as I was walking one day in the
neighborhood of Mrs. Wickham's home, shortly after my first
memorable visit there, I was attracted by an unpretentious but very
beautiful house, almost hidden by luxuriant climbing rose vines,
whose flowers of creamy whiteness were beyond compare with any roses
I had yet seen in earth or heaven. Meeting Mrs. Wickham, I pointed
to the house and asked: "Who lives there?"
"Suppose you go over and see," she said.
"Is it any one I know?" I asked.
"I fancy so. See, someone is even now at the door as
though expecting you."
I crossed over the snowy walk and flowery turf—for
the house stood in an angle formed by two paths crossing, almost
opposite Mrs. Wickham's and before I could ascend the steps I found
myself in the embrace of two loving arms.
"Bertha Sprague! was sure it was you when I saw you
go to Mrs. Wickham's a day or two ago. Did not she tell you I was
here?"
"She had no opportunity until today," I said. "But
dear Aunt Ann, I should have found you soon; I am sure you know
that."
"Yes, I am sure you would."
Then I recounted to her something of my visit to
Mrs. Wickham's that eventful day. She listened with her dear face
full of sympathy, then said, "There, dear, you need not tell me. Do
I not know? When the Master comes to gladden my eyes, I have no
thought or care for anything beyond, for days and days! Oh, the joy,
the peace of knowing I am safe in this blessed haven! How far beyond
all our earthly dreams is this divine life!"
She sat for a moment lost in thought, then said
wistfully, "Now, tell me of my children—are they coming?"
I gladdened her heart with all the cheering news I
could bring of her loved ones; and so we talked the hours away,
recalling many sweet memories of the earth-life, of friends and home
and family ties, and looking forward to the future coming to us of
those whom even the joys of heaven could not banish from our hearts.
Then also another evening, as the soft twilight
fell, and many of our dear home circle were gathered with us in the
great "flower-room," we heard a step upon the veranda, and as my
brother went to the open door a gentle voice said, "Is Mrs. Sprague
really here?"
"She is really here. Come and see for yourself." And
sweet Mary Green entered the room.
"I am so glad to welcome you home!" she said, coming
to me with extended bands, and looking into mine with her tender,
earnest eyes.
"My precious girl!" I cried, taking her to my heart
in a warm embrace. "I have been asking about you, and longing to see
you."
"I could scarcely wait to reach here when I heard
that you had come. Now, tell me everything—everything!" she said as
I drew her to a seat close beside me.
But questions asked and the answers given are too
sacred for rehearsal here. Every individual member of her dear
home-circle was discussed, and many were the incidents she recounted
to me that had occurred in her presence when her mother and I were
together and talking of the dear child we considered far removed
from our presence.
"I was often so close that I could have touched you with my hand,
had the needed power been given," she said.
After a long, close converse had been held between
us, I took her to the library, whither the rest had gone to examine
a new book just that day received. I introduced her to them all as
the daughter of dear friends still on earth, confident of the
welcome she would receive. My youngest sister and she at once became
interested in each other, finding congeniality in many of their
daily pursuits, and I was glad to believe they would henceforth see
much of each other in many different ways.
There was no measurement of time as we measure it
here, although many still spoke in the old-time language of "months"
and "days" and "years." I have no way of describing it as it seemed
to me then. There were periods, and allotted times; there were hours
for happy duties, hours for joyful pleasures, and hours for holy
praise. I only know it was all harmony, all joy, all peace, at all
times and in all conditions.
16. A
Reunion of Mother and Son
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THE current of my life flowed on in the heavenly ways, until
the months began to lengthen into years and my daily studies
ascended higher in the scale of celestial mysteries. I never wearied
of study, though much was taught and gained through the medium of
observation in the journeys that I was permitted to take with my
brother into different parts of the heavenly kingdom. I never lacked
time for social pleasures and enjoyments, for there is no clashing
of duties with inclination, no unfulfilled desires, no vain
strivings for the unattainable in that life, as in the life of
earth. Many precious hours of intercourse were spent in my dear
father's home, and sometimes on rare occasions I was permitted to
accompany him to his field of labor and assist him in instructing
those lately come into the new life with little or no preparation
for its duties and responsibilities.
On one occasion he said to me: "I have the most
difficult problem to deal with I have ever yet met in this work. It
is how to enlighten and help a man who suddenly plunged from an
apparently honorable life into the very depths of crime. I have
never been able to get him to accompany me to the river, where these
earthly cobwebs would be swept from his poor brain; his excuse being
always that God's mercy is so great in allowing him inside heaven's
gates at all, that he is content to remain always in its lowest
scale of enjoyment and life. No argument or teaching thus far can
make him alter his decision. He was led astray by infatuation for a
strange woman, and killed his aged mother in order to secure her
jewels for this wretched creature. He was executed for the crime, of
which in the end he sincerely repented, but he left life with all
the horror of the deed clinging to his soul."
"Has he seen his mother since coming here? Does she
know of his arrival?"
"No; she is entirely alone in this world, and it was
not thought wise to tell her of his coming till his soul was in a
better condition to receive her. He was an only child, and does not
lack the elements of refinement, but he was completely under the
control of this vile though fascinating woman. It is said she
drugged his wine and incited him to do the dreadful deed while under
its influence, because of her hatred for his mother, whose influence
was against her. When he came from under the influence of the wine,
he was horrified at what he had done, and his infatuation for the
woman turned to loathing—but, alas, too late! He would not see her
during his entire incarceration."
"How long was he in prison?"
"Has he seen the Christ?"
"No; he begs not to see him. He is very repentant,
and grateful to be saved from the wrath he feels was his just
punishment, but though he is conscious that his sin is forgiven, he
does not yet feel that he can ever stand in the presence of the Holy
One. And here, as upon earth, each must be willing to receive him.
His presence is never given undesired. I have not yet appealed for
higher help; my ambition is to lead these weak souls upward through
the strength entrusted to me. Can you suggest anything that would
probably reach him?"
"His mother. May I bring her?"
He thought a moment reflectively, then said: "A
woman's intuition. Yes, bring her."
I soon was on my way. I found the poor woman, laid the facts gently
before her, and waited her decision. There was no hesitancy upon her
part; in an instant she said, "My poor boy! Certainly I will go with
you at once."
We found my father waiting for us, and went
immediately to the great "Home" where these "students"—would we call
them?—stayed. It was a beautiful great building in the midst of a
park, with shaded walks and fountains and flowers everywhere. To one
just freed from earth it seemed a paradise indeed; but to those of
us who had tasted heaven's rarer joys, something was wanting. We
missed the lovely individual homes, the little children playing on
the lawns, the music of the angel choir; it was tame indeed beside
the pleasures we had tasted.
We found the young man seated beneath one of the
flower-laden trees, intently perusing a book that my father had left
with him. There was a peaceful look on his pale face, but it was
rather the look of patient resignation than of ardent joy. His
mother approached him alone; my father and I remaining in the
background. After a little time he glanced. up and saw his mother
standing near him. A startled look came into his face, and he rose
to his feet. She extended her arms toward him, and cried out
pathetically, "John, my dear boy, come home to me—I need you!" That
was all.
With a low cry he knelt at her feet and clasped her
knees, sobbing: "Mother! mother!"
She stooped and put her tender arms about him; she
drew his head gently to her breast and showered kisses on his bowed
head. Oh, the warm mother-love, the same in earth and heaven! Only
the Christ-love can exceed it. Here was this outraged mother, sent
into eternity by the hands of him who should have shielded and
sustained her, bending above her repentant son with the mother-love
with which her heart was overflowing shining upon him from her
gentle eyes, I saw my father turn his head to conceal his emotion,
and I knew that my own eyes were wet. My father had explained to the
mother that the first thing to be accomplished was to get her son to
the river, so we now heard her say caressingly:
"Come, John, my boy, take the first step upward, for
your mother's sake, that in time I may have the joy of seeing you in
our own home. Come, John, with mother."
She gently drew him, and to our great joy we saw him
rise and go with her, and their steps led them to the river. They
walked hand in hand, and as far as we could see them she seemed to
be soothing and comforting him.
"Thank God!" said my father fervently. "There will
be no further trouble now. When they return he will see with clearer
vision." And so it proved.
After this, by divine permission, I became much of
the time a co-laborer with my father, and thus enjoyed his society
and his instructions much oftener than otherwise I could have done.
17.
The Best Reunion of All
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ONE evening, some three years—counted by the calendar of
earth—after I had entered upon the joys and duties of the heavenly
life, I sat resting upon the upper veranda of our home, after a
somewhat arduous journey to a distant city of the heavenly realm.
From this part of the veranda we caught rare glimpses of the river
through the overhanging branches of the trees; and just below us, at
a little distance, we could see the happy children at their play
upon the lawn. Here my brother sought me out, and throwing himself
upon a soft veranda lounge near, lay for a time motionless and
silent. He looked as wearied as one can ever look in that life, but
I felt no anxiety about him, for I knew the rest was sure. He had
been absent on some earth-mission much of the time for many days,
and I knew from experience that some of the fatigue and care of
earth will cling to its on such occasions, till we are restored by
heaven's balmy air and life-giving waters. He had not told me, as he
sometimes did, where his mission had led him, and I had not asked
him, feeling sure that all it was best I should know would be
imparted.
My own duties had of late been unusually
responsible, leading me daily to a distant part of the heavenly
kingdom, hence I myself had not visited the beloved of earth for a
much longer period than usually elapsed between my visits. When last
seen, all of the dear ones had seemed in such vigorous health and
were so surrounded by earthly blessings that I had ceased to feel
they needed my ministrations as in the early days of their sorrow,
hence I had thrown all of my energies into the work assigned me by
the Master.
At length, after a time of rest, my brother arose to
a sitting posture, and regarding me for a moment in silence, said
gently, "I have news for you, little sister."
A thrill like an electric shock passed through me,
and in an instant I cried out joyously: "He is coming!"
He nodded his head, with a sympathetic smile, but
did not at once reply.
"When will it be? Am I to go to him?" I asked.
He hesitated an instant before saying: "Of course
you are permitted to go, if your heart will not be denied."
"Oh, I must go to him! I must be the first to greet
him! Perhaps it may be granted him to see me even while he is yet in
the flesh."
He shook his head sadly at this, and said, "No,
dear; he will not know you."
"Why? Frank, tell me all—and why you think, as I
plainly see you do, that it is not best I should go."
"He was stricken suddenly in the midst of his work,
while apparently in perfect health, and has not regained
consciousness since; nor will he ever on earth. Hence your presence
could be no solace to him."
"Three days ago; I have been with him almost
constantly by day and night ever since."
"Oh, why did you not sooner tell me?"
"It was thought wise to spare you the unnecessary
pain of seeing him suffer when you could not minister to him, and I
have come to tell you now that you may go if you still so desire."
"He will know me as soon as the struggle is past?"
"Yes, but he will be bewildered and weak; he will
need stronger help and guidance than you alone can give, and you
will miss the rapture of the meeting as it would he a little later
on."
"What would you have me do? You know I will yield to
your wiser judgment even against the pleadings of my heart. But I
can wait!"
"I will not say, 'do not go.' You shall accompany me
if you wish. I only think that after the first bewilderment of the
change has passed, after he has bathed in the waters of the River of
Life, he will be better prepared for the delightful reunion which
awaits him. You remember what the waters did for you, and how
bewildered and oppressed in spirit you were till you went with me
that morning, into the river. It is the same with all of us, only
where there has been serious trouble with the brain at last, it is
even more needed than on ordinary occasions. And that is the case
with my brother; he will not be fully himself until the magical
waters have swept the clouds from his brain."
"You are always right, my brother, and I will yield
to your wise advice, although my heart cries out to hasten at once
to his side. When will you return to him?"
"Immediately. There will be little time to wait.
With the quickening of the morning light we will be here. My
brave-hearted, wise little sister, the delay will be to you neither
sorrowful nor long."
He arose, and, bending over me, dropped a kiss
lightly on my brow, and in a moment he had passed from my sight.
"How strange," I thought, "that even in this matter,
so near to my heart, I am able to yield unmurmuringly! Father, I
thank Thee! I thank Thee for the glad reunion so near at hand; but,
even more than that, for the sweet submission in all things that has
grown into my life; that I can yield to Thy will even when Thou
wouldst permit it to be otherwise."
I bowed my head upon my hand and gave myself up to
mingled sad and happy thoughts. Was he, this dearly loved one,
indeed insensible to his suffering? Would the Father mercifully
spare him even the pang of the parting? Oh, that the morning were
here! How could I wait even that brief while for the sight of the
beloved face!
Suddenly a soft touch rested upon my bowed head, and
a voice I had learned to recognize and love beyond all things in
earth or heaven said, "Have I not said truly 'Though he were dead,
yet shall he live again'? What are now the years of separation,
since the meeting again is at hand? Come, and let us reason a little
together," the Master said, smiling down into my uplifted face. He
took my extended hand into his own, and sitting down beside me,
continued, "Let us consider what these years have done for you. Do
you not feel that you are infinitely better prepared to confer
happiness than when you parted from him you love?"
I nodded in glad affirmation.
"Do you not realize that you stand upon a higher
plane, with more exalted ideas of life and its duties: and that, in
the strength of the Father, you two henceforward will walk upward
together?"
Again I gladly acquiesced.
"Is the home-life here less attractive than it was
in the earth-life?"
"No, no! A thousand times no!" I cried.
"Then there is nothing but joy in the reunion at
hand?"
"Nothing but joy" I echoed.
Then the Savior led me on to talk of the one so soon
to come, and I opened my glad heart to him and told him of the noble
life, the unselfish toil, the high aspirations, the unfaltering
trust of him I loved. I spoke of his fortitude in misfortune, his
courage in the face of sore trial and disappointment, his
forgiveness of even malicious injury; and concluded by saying, "He
lived the Christianity many others professed. He always distanced me
in that."
The face of the Master glowed in sympathy as I
talked, and when I ceased he said: "I perceive that you have
discovered the secret which makes marriage eternal as the years of
heaven."
"Oh," I said, "to me marriage must be eternal! How
could it be otherwise when two grow together and become as one?
Death cannot separate them without destroying; they are no longer
two perfect beings, but one in soul and spirit forever."
"Aye," he answered; "but having the marriage rite
pronounced does not produce this change. It is the divinity of soul
wedded to soul alone that can do it."
So he led me on until my soul flew upward as a lark
in the early morning. He unfolded to me mysteries of the soul-life
that filled my heart with rapture, but which I may not here reveal.
At length, to my infinite Surprise, I saw the rosy glow deepening
across the sky, and knew that morning—love's morning—had dawned for
me in heaven. The Master arose, and pointing to the radiance, said:
"By the time thou art ready to receive them they will be here;" and
with a smile, and a touch that made a benediction, be departed.
As I arose and stood with face uplifted to the
coming day, I caught in the near distance the triumphant notes of
the angels' choral song; and this morning, as though in sympathy
with my thought, they sang, "He is risen! Hear it, ye heavens, and
ye sons of earth! He is risen, and has become the first fruits of
them that slept!"
I lifted up my voice with joy, and joined their
thrilling song; and as they swept onward and the cadence died away,
I slowly descended the stairway, crossed the lawn whose flowers
never crushed or withered beneath our feet, and sank for a moment
beneath the pure waters of the river. I felt no haste, no unwonted
excitement or unrest, though I knew that he was coming for whom my
soul had waited all these years. The Master's presence had filled me
with calm and peace that nothing had power to disturb; had prepared
and fitted me for the great happiness lying just before me.
Uplifted with a new, strange delight, I recrossed
the lawn, stopping upon the veranda before entering the house, to
gather a knot of cream-white roses and fasten them to my breast.
Then going to the library, I refilled the golden bowl with the
spicy-breathed scarlet Carnations, laying one aside to fasten upon
my husband's shoulder. I wanted to myself gather the flowers that
would greet him on his coming. I twisted up my hair in the manner
that he had most admired, and fastened a creamy bud within the
folds, that I might seem to him as I had of old.
Soon thereafter I heard voices and steps. Listen!
Yes, it is the same dear step for which I had so often listened in
the old home-life, the step that had always brought gladness to my
heart, and sunshine in our home! His step in heaven! I flew to the
open doorway, and in an instant was held close in the strong arms
and to the loving, throbbing heart of my dear husband. Was there
anything more for me that heaven could give!
My brother, with thoughtful care, passed onward to
the upper rooms of the house, and for awhile we were alone together,
we whose lives had run, so happily mingled, through the long years
of our mortal life. I drew him within the house, and in the
vestibule again he took me in his arms and drew me to his heart.
"This is heaven indeed!" he said.
We passed into the "flower-room," and on its
threshold he stood a moment, entranced with its beauty; but when I
would have related to him its history, as my brother had given it to
me, he said: "Not today, my dear; I have only eyes and ears for you
to-day; all else in heaven must wait."
So we sat and talked together as in the olden days,
and the happy hours came and went, and the day melted into the
twilight glow, before we realized it was half spent.
Our brother Frank had come to us about the noontide,
and together we had gone over the lovely house, had stood upon the
broad verandas and eaten of the heavenly fruit. Then we all sat
together where I had spent the hours waiting in the presence of the
blessed Master. I told them much that he then had said to me, and
how he turned into triumphant rejoicing the hours which I had
anticipated would pass in lonely waiting. The eyes of my dear
husband were tear-filled, and he pressed my hand, which he still
kept in his, in tender sympathy.
"Oh, darling, it is a blessed, blessed life!" I
said.
"I already realize the blessedness," he replied,
"for has it not given me back my brother and my wife—my precious
wife!"
Early the following morning I said to my husband and
our brother: "We must go to father and mother Sprague's today. They
have the first claim, after ours, Frank."
"Yes, we will go at once," they both replied.
So together we all started. In the earliest days of
my heavenly life I had sought out with much Joy the home of my
husband's parents, and was by them accorded, as in the earth-life, a
warm place in their hearts, and many happy hours had we spent
together since. Now we were taking to them a favorite son, and I
realized how his coming would bring gladness to their hearts and
home. It was a joyful meeting, especially to our mother, and the day
was far spent before we arose to return.
"William," said our mother, fondly laying her hand
upon his arm, "yours was a happy home on earth—I used to think a
perfect home; it will be far happier here," with a loving glance at
me.
"I am sure of that, mother. I have my dear wife and
Frank constantly with me; and you and my father and Josephine"—a
favorite niece—"to come to here; and after awhile," with a little
hesitation, "the holier Joys and privileges of heaven."
We turned to go, and upon the threshold met an aunt
who in the earth-life—blind and helpless—had been a favorite with us
all.
"My dear children," she exclaimed, "how good it
seems to see you all again!"
"Aunt Cynthia!" my husband said fondly.
"Yes, Aunt Cynthia, but no longer groping helpless
in the darkness. 'Whereas I once was blind, now I see,'" she quoted,
smiling happily.
And so it was—the Master's touch had rested on the
sightless eyes, and, closing to the darkness of earth, they had
opened upon the glories of heaven. Marvelous transition! No wonder
we left her singing:
Glory to Him who this marvel hath wrought,
Filling my spirit with joy and delight!
Lo, in my blindness I safely have walked
Out of the darkness into the light!
DAYS lengthened into weeks, and weeks into months, and these
in turn crept onward into years, and the duties and joys of heaven
grew clearer and clearer with each passing hour. Our home-life was
perfect, though we looked forward with joy to the future coming of
our son and daughter to make its ties complete. We had often spoken
of going together to the great celestial sea, but the time had never
seemed quite ripe for so doing. We realized it, was one of the great
mysteries of heaven, although we knew not just what to expect, since
there no one ever seeks to forestall sight by description.
One evening I said to my brother, "I have a strange
desire to go to the sea, if you think it wise that we should do so."
"I am glad that it is your desire to go, as it is
mine to have you. I was about to propose that you and my brother
should take together this blessed journey."
"Will you not accompany us?"
"Not at this time. We will all take it again
together, but it is best that now you two should go atone. You know
the way. Through the forest that leads to the Temple, till almost
there; then bear to the right and follow the golden path that takes
you direct to the shore."
So, in the quivering light of the glorious morning
we started, full of a holy joy that together we might take this
special journey. We entered and traversed the great forest, where
the golden light fell through the quivering branches overhead, and
birds of gorgeous plumage and thrilling song were darting
everywhere. We heard, nearer and ever nearer, the regular dashing of
the waves against the shore; and now there came to us bursts of
triumphant song and the harmony of many instruments of music. At
length we emerged from the forest, and stood mute and motionless
before the overwhelming glory of the scene before us.
Can I describe it as it appeared to me that day?
Never, until my lips can speak, and your heart understand, the
language of the royal courts above. From our very feet sloped
downward toward the shore a golden strand many hundred feet wide,
and extending on either hand far beyond the limits of our vision.
This strand caught and radiated the morning light until wherever it
was visible it glittered and glimmered like the dust of diamonds and
other precious stones, and the waves, as they came and went in
ceaseless motion, caught up this sparking sand and carried it on
their crests, like the phosphorescence we sometimes see in the wake
of a vessel in mid-ocean. And the sea! It spread out before us in a
radiance that passes description in any language I have ever known.
It was like the white glory that shone through the windows of the
Temple, and beneath this shilling glory we caught in the roll of the
waves the blue tint of the waters of that sea which has no limit to
its depths or bounds. Upon its shining bosom we saw in every
direction boats, representing all nations, but in beauty of
construction far surpassing anything earth has ever known. They were
like great open pleasure-barges, and were filled with people looking
with eager faces toward the shore, many in their eagerness standing
erect and gazing with wistful, expectant eyes into the faces of
those upon the shore.
Ah, the people upon the shore! "Numberless as the
sands of the sea," they stood, far as the eye could reach, far as
stretched the shore of that illimitable sea, a great mass of
beautiful souls clad in the spotless garments of the redeemed. Many
among them had golden harps and various instruments of music, and
whenever a boat touched the shore and its inmates were welcomed by
the glad voices and tender embraces of their beloved ones In the
throng, the harps would he held aloft, all of the golden instruments
would sound, and the vast multitude would break forth into the
triumphant song of victory over death and the grave.
"Do these people stand here always, I wonder?" I
said softly.
"Not the same people," said a radiant being near us,
who had heard my question. "But there is always a throng of people
here—those who are expecting friends from the other life, and those
who assemble to share their joy. Some of the heavenly choristers
also are always here, but not always the same ones. You will notice
that most of those who arrive are led quietly away by their friends,
and many others are constantly joining the multitude."
He passed onward toward the shore, and left us rapt
in awe and wonder.
We soon became deeply interested in watching the
reunions, and found ourselves joining with rapture in the glad songs
of rejoicing. Now and then a face we remembered to have seen on
earth would be among the eager faces in the boats, but none that had
been especially dear to us; still it made us notice more closely and
sympathize more heartily with those who welcomed beloved friends.
Now we would see a wife caught in the close embrace of a waiting
husband; now a little child with a glad cry would spring into the
outstretched arms of the happy mother; friend would clasp friend in
glad reunion, and here an aged mother would be folded to the heart
of a beloved child.
As one boat of more than usual strength and beauty
came riding gracefully over the waves, we observed the tall figure
of a man standing near her prow with his arms about a graceful woman
who stood by his side. Each shaded with uplifted hand from their
dazzled eyes the unwonted splendor and scanned, wistfully and
searchingly, the faces of the crowd as the boat neared the shore.
Suddenly with a great thrill of joy surging through my being, I
cried out, "It is our precious son, and his dear wife! And they have
come together!"
In an instant we were swiftly moving through the
throng that parted in ready sympathy to let us pass. And, as the
boat touched the shore, with a swift movement they were both beside
us—the dear daughter already close clasped to the hearts of her own
happy parents who were waiting near the water's edge, while at the
same Instant we felt the arms of our beloved son enfolding us; and
soon thereafter we were all in each other's embrace. Oh, what a
rapturous moment was that! Our home life in heaven complete, no
partings forever! As we stood with encircling arms, scarcely
realizing the unexpected bliss, the heavenly choir broke into song;
and with uplifted faces radiant with joy, eyes filled with happy
tears and voices trembling with emotion, we all joined in the glad
anthem:
Glory be unto the Father, and unto the Son!
Glory be unto the ever-blessed Three in One!
No more sorrow, no more parting, no more grief or pain;
Christ has broken death's strong fetters, we are free again:
Heart to heart and hand to hand,
Meet we on the golden strand.
Glory, glory to the Father! Glory to the Son!
Glory be unto the ever-blessed Three in One!
Alleluia! Amen!
The song rose and swelled triumphantly as the vast
multitude caught it up, and the surge of the waves made a deep
undertone to the melody that increased its solemnity, as with bowed
heads and full hearts we passed onward hand in hand; and the light
that fell about us was purer, holier, more divine, than it had ever
been before.
A TIME came when one day as I stood in my lovely room that
had really become to me a shrine, and looked up into the pictured
face of the Christ above me, I fancied that the tender eyes looking
down into mine no longer told of a deathless love alone, but carried
in their depths a pity, a loving compassion which I had never
noticed there before. Then as I turned toward my couch I even
fancied that his hands reached out from the canvas and rested in
benediction on my head. I stood a moment in blessed peace before
him, then as the hands seemed to be withdrawn, I turned and lay down
for an instant's rest. But strange thoughts and fancies crept into
my brain, such as I had not known in years. I felt confused and
bewildered, and started up restlessly from my pillow, only to fall
back again in doubt, and something akin to dread. What could it
mean? Could the old unrest of earth find place in this divine
retreat? Then I heard unfamiliar voices. Someone said, Her Color is
better than it has been for several days, I think."
"Yes, there is no doubt but she is better to-day.
There is really hope for her now, I am sure. But she came very near
passing through the Gates."
"Very near passing through the Gates"! As though I
had not passed through, and in returning left them so ajar that
gleams of the heavenly radiance from beyond them will fall about my
life forever!
I have been in my Father's house.
"We shall know each other there!"
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